Sunday Stealing ( on Monday)

This is stolen from Jack and Jill over at Frisky in the 916... I'm having a hard time linking anything this morning so check them out if you get a chance. Thanks for the inspiration!


1. Can you cook?

I Sure Can! I cook almost everyday right now since I am home but once I start working again full time I usually return to cooking full meals 4 times a week with enough for left overs on the other days. Atlas is the professionally trained chef but I do the majority of the cooking in the house.

2. What was your dream growing up?

Not really sure what my dream was. To be happy I think. A lot of my childhood was spent in turmoil and viewing relationships that were not good examples of what I wanted. So I think I just wanted to get away from home and to be happy. My dream of happiness and love and comfort and being able to take care of myself has been very much attained.

3. What talent do you wish you had?

Playing an instrument. I am going to learn. Its the next thing on the bucket list. I just have to pick out what I want to play.

4. Favorite place?

Favorite place? I enjoy being at home. I love my house, I love my room, and when its quiet its the best place on earth.

5. Favorite vegetable?

I eat all kinds of vegetables. If I had to choose just one I don't know what I would pick. I like cooked spinach. I like it alone, I like it creamed, I like it in dips, I like it in eggs, in salads... Yes that would have to be my favorite.

6. What was the last book you read.

Something Nursing and Testing related, boring and annoying.

7. What zodiac sign are you?

Scorpio.

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

My ears are pierced, I have 3 holes in each but usually only wear two per. My belly button and eyebrow were pierced in high school and I took them out shortly after graduating. I have 3 tattoos, One on my hip that I got when I was 18, one on my hand that I got when I was 21, and one on my right calf I got two months ago.

9. Worst Habit?

Procrastinating. I should be studying right now but this seemed so much more fun. Then I should study and I will go do housework or start dinner... its always something.

10. Do you personally know anybody on Blog?
No, not personally, some people I know a little more than their blog but even that isn't much. I would love to know some of the people on here on a more personal level. Maybe someday.

11. What is your favorite sport?

Favorite sport to play? Basketball. I played all through high school, I love the athleticism of it and the sweat and the close contact and aggression. To watch I am a die hard football fan but my heart lies in hockey. It just such a tough sport, the skate and handle a puck with all the padding is incredible to me then add hitting and fighting and scoring and its damn near an art form.

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?

Overly Optimistic.I always see a silver ling to everything and I don't see much point focusing on things that are out of our control. Worrying and stress never made anyone feel better.

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an lift with someone of the opposite sex?

Talk? LOL. I guess it would depend on who and how long we were there. I enjoy kissing maybe making out would be a good option.

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

See! The worst thing to happen to me? This summer all around has been fairly shitty. With my mom being sick and eventually passing and my sister's car accident, and everything else that happened along the way. However it didn't really happen to me, I was just an observer, I was connected genetically and emotionally to the entire situation so although it hurt, the physical pain and suffering of all the situations were not technically mine.

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:

I do not drink Milk... at all, I even eat cereal dry.

16. Do you have any pets?

3 large meat-head monster lap dogs. 3 Mastiffs... pets... more like horses.

17. Do you know how to do the macarena?

I do, but I haven't had to do it in a very very long time.

18. Is the sun shining where you are now?

No its cold and rainy here just like its been for the last 3 days. Its fall *sigh*

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

Neither? I could really give or take them. They don't freak me out, but I don't really see the appeal of it either. I like stand up comedians because I like to laugh and they don't have to wear all that makeup to be funny.

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

I think most of the things that I didn't like that I could change I did change. I didn't like my teeth, I got them straightened. I didn't like wearing glasses all the time, I got LASIK. I didn't like the way my boobs looked after breastfeeding for 4 years straight so I got them "refiled". I am really comfortable and content with myself and what I have so I wouldn't change another thing.

21. Would you be my good angel or bad angel?

I good angel. I think in general most people just suck so I feel most people could use a good kick in the ass and pointed in the right direction every now and again.

22. What color eyes do you have?

Blue. Sometimes its a greyish ocean blue other times they are very dark blue.

23. Ever been married? Yes 7 years and counting.

24. Bottle or Draft?

Neither, I don't drink beer. I just don't like the taste. If I am out and drinking chances are I have a grey goose and cranberry in my hand or a captain and coke, or crown black and coke. If I'm drinking, I probably want a buzz and beer won't get me there because I have to choke it down.

25. If you won £10,000 today, what would you do with it?

Turn it into dollars and then take a vacation. Probably Bora Bora, that is looking like the next adventure.

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?

No gum, I am scared it will stick to my teeth and pull them out. I know unrealistic ideas but it all makes sense in my head alright?

27. What's your favorite bar to hang at?

Bar a mile from our house. Its got good music on the weekends and a small crowd of townies that are real people and enjoy having a good time.

28. Do you believe in ghosts?

Why not? I am fairly certain when I was young like 5, I saw a ghost in my bedroom. I pulled the covers over my head and called for my mom. I remember all of this fairly well so it must of made an impression on me.

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

Sleep, play on the computer, Chat online.

30. Do you swear a lot?

Heh, Like a Fucking Sailor :)

31. Biggest pet peeve?

Chewing with your mouth open or talking with food in your mouth.

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? Charismatic

33. In two words, how would you describe yourself? Coolest Ever

HNT Somtimes you need some Thrills....

Sometimes my favorite thing in the world is to wear fancy lingerie under my everyday normal clothes. What a surprise it is ay night then when I strip down to get in the shower or to hop in bed. Surprise!

I stole this... thanks Will for some inspiration

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Enough is enough and its time for a change!

This summer has been one sad, depressing event after another. I remember a post I wrote asking " are people really this happy?" Yes we were, we are. Its just been one thing after another this year. First my mom's diagnosis in mid May, then my sister's car accident on June 12th. She has traumatic brain injury, and is at a nursing home right now, 25 years old in a nursing home. My mom passed a week ago Sunday. Then there was a dog fight at my mom's Sunday night, and I had to rush my mother's 12 year old 115lb dog to the emergency vet for surgery because my aunt's rottie mix ripped off his front bicep... no joke, 1000 dollars later the dog is around, limping with staples and stitches but here. As we were loading the dog into the car Atlas' hand slides off the tailgate and his elbow connects with my left eye. I had the first black eye of my life for my mother's memorial service and party. About a month ago my son spilled boiling soup down his chest that resulted in a 6x6 second degree burn... This is no joke, this is what my life has been like for the last 2 and a half months. Both my windshields got busted in my vehicles while driving behind trucks that spit stones... Just couldn't catch a break.

However, there is a silver lining, there has to be, and here it is... I graduated. I was commissioned as a Nurse in the United States Navy. My mom was there to do it. We had a huge party to celebrate. I got a huge pay raise, I traded in my 2008 Kia Sorento for a 2012 for lower payments. I refinanced my house for 3 years less mortgage and 200 less a month. We are going to look to buy a new house in Virginia this weekend since we will be moving to that area shortly after Christmas.

I haven't cried hard for my mom yet. I cried more before she died that I have since. It just wasn't my mom laying in that bed Sunday morning. She had lost nearly 50 pounds, she had no hair ( from the chemo), she wasn't speaking, she screamed out in pain everytime I went to move her... It was heart breaking... but that wasn't my mom. My mom left a few weeks ago... She was the strongest, toughest person I will ever meet... its just a sad situation all around. Alas though, I am here to tell it, both myself and atlas are healthy, our children are smart strong beautiful individuals. We make a comfortable living and have nice things... I have to look at the bad with the good.... or the good with the bad in this case. Thank you all for reading, for keeping up and for the support.

She's gone

My mother passed away Sunday morning... she was 47years old. Left 3 young daughters, 2 grandchildren. a mother, a sister and two brothers... Im so very sad... but also relieved

When real life needs you

I've been busy. Like abnormally busy. After the whole crisis of my mother being diagnosed with stage 4 cancer last month I was awoken one morning to a phone call that my baby sister only 18 months my younger was in a car accident, life flighted to a nearby trauma unit and was barely hanging on. She has since fought back but is still in a coma. She opens her eyes but is otherwise barely responsive. All this along with finishing up my last 3 classes to earn my BSN and summer has just flown by. But I have been lurking every so often when I really needed a break from rela life but trust me.... Real life needed the Real me for awhile.

The long awaited HNT

Yes its been a long long long time, but here it is... Happy HNT!!!!

TMI Tuesday

1. What time did you go to bed last night and were you alone?

Went to bed around 10, fell asleep around midnight... and no there was no funny business I just have a bad case of insomnia that I have to lay in bed with my eyes closed till I pass out. I was not alone, Atlas was in bed with me but he went to bed at 10 and fell asleep at 1003... Sooo semi alone, but I sometimes like it that way.

2. If you could be given ANY gift what would it be?

Any gift... side from a large lump sum of money I would have to go with


3. What was the last film that really moved/disturbed/thrilled you and why?

Really moved me? I really like The HurtLocker... Becuase a job, the adrenile becomes an addiction and there is no way in a civilized world to fill the desires that can be filled when in a warzone. It shows the struggle that that man goes through when he comes home and eh can not adjust to life here, how he continuously goes back again and again... At some point his luck will run out because there is no way to live an extended life when you live like that.

4. What is your favorite way to wake up and what is the first thing you do?

I love to feel Atlas' hand caressing me, reaching for me, needing me. I enjoy when I wake up to him kissing the back of my neck through my hair and as his hands glide over my breasts and drag down my stomach... I enjoy the way he reaches for my hips form behind and pulls me into him. The way his hands glide over my back or the way his fingers feel tangled in my loose hair... That's how I enjoy being woken up...

What usually happens... one of us wakes up and lets the dogs outside and wrangles the kiddos for breakfast while the other is able to sleep in.

5. You’ve been granted an extra hour in the day, what are you going to do?
a. Sleep more
b. Extend a sexual interlude
c. Shop
d. Finally fit in that workout that you usually can’t make time for

A.... without a shadow of a doubt. I always wake up thinkin a nap would be great right after lunch and it never ever happens.


BONUS: Are you in love or lust?

Wow.... Both... I am in love with Atlas... I am shamefully open about this and I often lust for his touch. But there are still many others that I lust for...

She's amazing

Went to see my mom today. She had her appointment with the oncologist who has everything ready for her to start chemo on monday. The point of chemo not to cure her, but to slow the cancer down and hopefully give her time. I have seen it happen the other way so many times before... the chemo is the part that cuts your time... most of the time, but my mom isn't a "most of the time" kind of person... I went and pulled weeds at her house, she wants to get her gazebo up and her pool opened and we are gonna go and do that tomarrow. While I was there my mom cleaned up after her dogs and weedwacked her backyard... Amazing... simply amazing...

verbal HNT

So life got in the way again. I took some pics before clinical changed my mind after... So I am gonna do my best to describe myself... truthfully... and let your imagination do the rest and I will get a pic up sooner or later I promise.

I'm, 5'7, 140 pounds... I have long hair to about my braline on my back, it used to be blond but I have recently changed it to a nice auburn red which fits my blue eyes, fair skin, and freckles. I have a big smile and straight teeth that I spent 3 years of my adult life getting and paying for ( was miserable but worth it)... I wear a size 5 pants which isn't what I actually want but its far better than most after 2 children in 3 years and I am content in them... I have nice round soft 36D breasts that fit my body better than they ever did before I had children and I enjoy them the most out of any part of my body. I usually wear tight low cut tank tops that sit below my hip bones and a sweat shirt over top of form fitting flare leg jeans with my hair pulled back in a pony tail. I may not be someone's typical mom but I am very comfortable in my own skin.

So again life got in the way tonight, I spent most of my night at dear daughter's dance recitral rehersal and when I got home Atlas was already home on the computer and I didn't get a chance to get on till late tonight... its coming I promise.... Are you still going to wait?