Enough is enough and its time for a change!

This summer has been one sad, depressing event after another. I remember a post I wrote asking " are people really this happy?" Yes we were, we are. Its just been one thing after another this year. First my mom's diagnosis in mid May, then my sister's car accident on June 12th. She has traumatic brain injury, and is at a nursing home right now, 25 years old in a nursing home. My mom passed a week ago Sunday. Then there was a dog fight at my mom's Sunday night, and I had to rush my mother's 12 year old 115lb dog to the emergency vet for surgery because my aunt's rottie mix ripped off his front bicep... no joke, 1000 dollars later the dog is around, limping with staples and stitches but here. As we were loading the dog into the car Atlas' hand slides off the tailgate and his elbow connects with my left eye. I had the first black eye of my life for my mother's memorial service and party. About a month ago my son spilled boiling soup down his chest that resulted in a 6x6 second degree burn... This is no joke, this is what my life has been like for the last 2 and a half months. Both my windshields got busted in my vehicles while driving behind trucks that spit stones... Just couldn't catch a break.

However, there is a silver lining, there has to be, and here it is... I graduated. I was commissioned as a Nurse in the United States Navy. My mom was there to do it. We had a huge party to celebrate. I got a huge pay raise, I traded in my 2008 Kia Sorento for a 2012 for lower payments. I refinanced my house for 3 years less mortgage and 200 less a month. We are going to look to buy a new house in Virginia this weekend since we will be moving to that area shortly after Christmas.

I haven't cried hard for my mom yet. I cried more before she died that I have since. It just wasn't my mom laying in that bed Sunday morning. She had lost nearly 50 pounds, she had no hair ( from the chemo), she wasn't speaking, she screamed out in pain everytime I went to move her... It was heart breaking... but that wasn't my mom. My mom left a few weeks ago... She was the strongest, toughest person I will ever meet... its just a sad situation all around. Alas though, I am here to tell it, both myself and atlas are healthy, our children are smart strong beautiful individuals. We make a comfortable living and have nice things... I have to look at the bad with the good.... or the good with the bad in this case. Thank you all for reading, for keeping up and for the support.

She's gone

My mother passed away Sunday morning... she was 47years old. Left 3 young daughters, 2 grandchildren. a mother, a sister and two brothers... Im so very sad... but also relieved