Is it over yet?

I'm kind of wishing the summer away. I had a lot of fun with my kids gone. I  have had a lot of fun with them home... but I am ready for school to start and to get into a schedule that is normal again. I just want to be normal again. Just for a little while.

So... "sleeping bag kid" who I was chatting with online for like a month... is not allowed to talk to me anymore. His wife... who I was told was only a paperwork thing, and that they don't get along and its only for the insurance right now... sends me a message, that we shouldn't talk anymore because she feels like we crossed a "friend" line, and that she is sure my husband would agree...

***screeching tires*** First, I went back through all of our messages. I did say a few things that were mildly inappropriate, but nothing I wouldn't say to someone I have known for 20 plus years... Did I ever once say anything to make him think I liked him anymore than a friend... no... Did I ask about his wife and kids on a regular basis, yes. Does he know I am happily married... yes... Did he say a few questionable things? Yes... Like he would have a naked good time... which I responded, not naked, but a good time. When I asked what he thought about me, his response was " I should have married you when I had the chance" My response " I'm flattered you'd think that" I said  few times that things may be a lot different right now if we would of put some effort into whatever we were as teenagers. That's not a lie, he knows it, Atlas knows that too. I am also guessing his wife knows it. hmmm... So... for now, I will let it be, I never meant to be a problem, He messaged me out of the blue, I just thought he wanted to talk for awhile... perhaps his wife thinks he may of had other intentions... He was never that bright...

So for now... I am laying low, only trying to get into trouble with people who have as much to lose as I do if we would get into trouble... I feel its safer that way. For me, screwing around with some construction worker who is having a hard time making ends meet, and isn't happy in his marriage may be fun... but when we get caught, and his buddies are high fiving him, I am losing my happy marriage, as well as respect and other parts of a well paying, well respected profession... For as much fun as it might be in that moment its not worth it... maybe that is the lesson I have learned this summer. For now that I just wish it would be over so we can get on with the next part of this year...