Valentine's Day

Oh what a drag. We didn't do anything spectacular, nothing that really deviated from our normal day to day activities. We both went to work, came home, did the kid thing, all night and then climbed into bed around 830. I know so lame.

Oh well... I will be having a lot of alone time in the upcoming months... When i look ahead I get so frustrated and overwhelmed with this type of lifestyle, that it makes me dream of a day when I wont be doing it. Its hard to see other people complaining about their husband working nights for 4 days at Walmart, when I have to deal with 6 months of days nights weekends holidays and birthdays alone with 2 kids, 3 dogs, 2 houses, and working fulltime... Sometimes it just irks me and I know I know I CHOSE this but someone has to do it right? For the 1.7 percent raise I have gotten over the last 4 years I am about ready to say take it this job and shove it...

All truth behind that, I wouldn't do that, because I love my job, I enjoy what I do, and I have enough time towards retirement that its stupid to even think about it. I am just building up to saying good bye to Atlas... ALOT in the next couple years... I haven't been feeling real good and I feel like calling off but I can't... oh well I do have a 3 day weekend coming up and that will be awesome.

If YOU are reading... leave me a message... just so I know... Oh well I am gonna go and get ready for work. Enjoy the day all.

TMI Tuesday: February 14, 2012 - Happy Valentine's Day

TMI Tuesday: February 14, 2012 - Happy Valentine's Day


Whether you celebrate Valentine’s Day or think it’s a consumer-oriented, manipulative and shallow interpretation of romance, just have yourself some fun by answering these TMI Tuesday questions.


1. Cupid is the god of desire, affection, and erotic love. As the myth goes, a person who is shot by Cupid’s arrow is filled with uncontrollable desire. On your behalf, who would you like Cupid to shoot?


Oh wow... well... I am glad he shot Atlas nearly 8 years ago but if he HAD to shoot someone new I would go with someone like Sidney Crosby.... okay sue me, he may be a little younger than me, but I would love to feel his rock hard *ahem* body against mine... If you don't know who he is, google image him. Not only is he kind of dreamy, but he is also the best hockey player in the world, when he is healthy




2. Earlier in the evening you had dinner at the Fook Yue Chinese Restaurant. You are feeling quite amorous. You open a fortune cookie in the bedroom. Three fortunes appear:

1- “Your patience will be rewarded.” What would you like that reward to be?

2- “Try something new.” What is the something new you want to try?

3- ” ’tis better to give than receive.” What would you like to give?

1. Some attention. When I am begging and throwing myself at you, don't just blow me off, at least acknowledge my presence.

2. I enjoy the prospect of anything new...

3. Probably oral sex because I am a fan but I have to admit I would rather give AND recieve.




3. If you were to write a special Valentine message (e.g., card, letter, etc.) what is that message?

To Atlas, you are everything that I have ever wanted in my life and I love you to the moon and back.




4. Are you doing something special for Valentine’s day or is it just another day?

It is really just another day. I don't need a special day to tell Atlas I love him. He knows I do. I did get my kiddos a little something, and I did get a little something this AM, this afternoon and again before bed...;)




5. You must give chocolate to your secret Valentine for Valentine’s Day. The chocolate is in the shape of your what?

Wow I am so unoriginal... I saw a chocolate shoe today, No kidding it was pretty awesome. I don't know if I would ever eat it but it was something I never saw before.

It's been a long week and I worked on the floor all week. I'm very very very excited to be working with real people again and learning so much in my new job. Since I have been on the floor I have not be keeping up with my email everyday and therefore not been in contact with Hermes nearly at all... which is okay...

So... I've had this on my mind all week so here's a story...

We were both 18, the summer that we graduated, in a rural area where we met nearly 10 years earlier. We have been friends forever, hanging out fishing, swimming, sitting around the campfire since we were just kids.

Sitting on the top of a picnic table fishing in the middle of the nightthe glow of a lantern behind us, that night it was different. Sitting close together, it was warm, early summer. We laughed and joked and I put my head on your shoulder, you put your arm around my waist. This wasn't the first time we sat like this but this was the first time that you reached your hand to my chin to turn my face to you. You pulled my face to you and we kissed. Eyes closed mouth to mouth my hand running through the back of your hair and my fingers tracing the back of the green ballcap that you always wear. After the kiss, our first real kiss with each other, our eyes met and we knew this MUST go further... we had to see where this was going.

You leaned back on your hands on top of the pinic table, kind of taking in the moment, staring at the stars in the clear sky. I took this moment to climb onto your lap facing you, both my knees on the picnic table. You reached up and wrapped your arms around me, pulling me close to your body, your lips already on my neck. I can feel myself start to breathe heavy and I am already putty in your arms, I take your hat off and set it on the table next to us, as I pull your face to me. Your lips trace my clavicle and move to my mouth, both of us breathing heavy not sure if this is what we should be doing after all, you have a girlfriend...

Your hands slide over my jean shorts and pull my body on top of you closer so that your face is at my breasts. You pull the tank top down and kiss my chest taking ever breathe that I gasp. I swear I can't hear anything but our breathing and moans that escape between kisses.

The next noise we hear is your fishing pole being pulled into the lake by what we can only imagine is loch ness... You basically toss me to the ground as you chase your pole into the lake... You are waist deep when you realize Nessy isn't giving your pole back and you turn back to look at me. The look on your face when you stood there, clothes and all, waist deep, the moon shining behind you still makes me laugh...

"Are you coming swimming or what?" You say to me, pulling your shirt over your head. It makes me laugh, I have to reel my fishing line in before I come into the water, shoes and all... After all Your pole was just pulled into the water by what we can only imagine was a shark.

I meet you in the water which is higher than my waist and we stand looking at each other, awkward childhood friends, turned into lovers? You reach your arms around me as I am shivering just a bit in the spring fed lake... I lean into your chest, strong warm, I can smell you, your hands trace my back down over my hips head chin perched on the top of my head ( yes he was that tall). I lock my fingers into the back of the belt loops on your camo shorts. we slowly lead ourselves into a bit deeper water in an attempt to stay warm. Again we are kissing. This time you are holding me, my arms wrapped around your waist, my legs around your waist, hands exploring each other's body. "Let's get out of here, go back to camp, make a fire" You whispered into my ear.

Back at camp we did make a fire, and we set our sleeping bags by the fire, for the first time we were not sleeping across from eachother but our sleeping bags were next to each other. We sat around, the lake still on our mind, drank a few beers and held hands... When we started to fall asleep we laid down in our separate sleeping bags and stared at the moon... A few seconds before I knew I would be asleep I felt you unzipping my sleeping bag... " Come lay with me tonight."

I got up and moved into your sleeping bag, since yours was a bit bigger. You wrapped your arms around me and told me that you had real feelings, but you didn't know what they were. I agreed, I felt the same way... I still do to this day... and you rolled on top of me on your elbows your fingers tracing my hair, your head laying on my chest as I rolled my finger nails down your back. You moved your face to mine. " I want you but I want all of you, your friendship, you, how we are today" I nodded and he slid my shorts over my hips.

I would love to go on to say that we had mind blowing crazy sex outside next to the camp fire but it would be a lie. It was more akward, teenage, we are both new to this kind of sex but there was so much feeling and passion there. I would also love to say that from there we went on to have a relationship and get married and have lots of babies, but again it would be a lie. We woke up the next morning in eachother's arms. Neither of us any worse for wear. I cleaned up our mess and went our separate ways for the day. In the weeks and months and now years that followed we have kept in touch ALOT. We are still incredible friends and he truly is one of the only people I honestly sometimes think What if....

So there's a stroy to start your Monday. Have a happy week ;)

Soo...

Maybe not back with a vengence but I am working on a *fiction all week. Just no privacy around here right now. Works been busy. Crazy, exciting, and a learning experiance all around. Still kinda missing Hermes... jerk... I want to talk but he seems to brush it aside, maybe I really was nothing more than someone to fill a 5 week friendship with...

@Jack and Jill... I don't care how many entries you write that aren't totally yours. I read them all. I may not comment but its because I am reading in small boxes not meant for anyone's eyes but my own.

I promise I will post a new blog soon. Promise... I got things to get out and off my chest.

WILL?? WHERE ARE YOU???

Again, I thought I would be a good blogger for awhile. Trust me, I'm coming back. Soon.