My trip tp Brazil

Okay... so I didn't really go to brazil... but I went to a spa where I had a Brazil inspired visit. So... I usually shave... everything...and although that takes a bit of time, it has always done the job. Well.. I was kind of tired of shaving and with Atlas away and no chance of play for me I kind of fell behind on the subject. So I asked around and a friend of mine gave me the info to a good spa and a good person and so... the story went....

I arrived a bit terrified because i have heard horor stories. She showed me to room and told me  I could undress from the waist down. I got undressed, laid on a table and in she walks. She starts off slowly, removing small parts until one side was done, she then asked me to bend the opposite leg and she did that side. Making small talk and not making it awkward at all.  After having children I really am not too shy either but it was a good experiance over all. Not altogether too bad, more uncomfortable than actual pain, and I think I psyched myself out more than it was really worth. 

So the results? I love it, It doesn't look  much different than when i shave but it feels much softer and smoother and I really like the way it feels. I have already made an appointment for the next one, so I will have to admit that this is something I plan to keep up.  I didn't have any weid reactions, no ice packs or motrin involved in the aftercare. I actually went out had a good time, and never noticed a difference.

Yeah... Something like that

Had a lot of fun last night. Did not send out any drunk texts do to my phone dying very early on the night. Not to say that when I got home I didn't think about it, but the room was spinning already and I would of had to text with one eye closed in order to see straight... I love Sidney Crosby and all but I think Luke Bryan may be a little closer to my speed... Damn...

I'm alittle drunk on you, and high on summertime....

Luke Bryan... Jason Aldean, Apple Pie Moonshine, Boots, short shorts, Corset and a Hat...

And I had the hardest time finding anyone to go with me... hmmm... I see some drunk texting going on Friday night, just hope I make it home and someone pours me into my bed... Yeah... its been one of those weeks...But... I got things to be excited for.

 

The disadvantages of being me

I was in a rough place last night... alone in my house, no kids ( away for a week and a half), Atlas gone for a while still... It was queit and still and I was alone. It had been about a year, well to the day of the week since my mom had passed, the acutal date is tomorrow... I just wanted someone to reach out to. My best friend in the world had a baby 3 days ago and I couldn't make myself call her even though I know she would of willingly talked to me, calmed my fears and more than likely cried with me.

 I thought about emailing  Hermes just to have someone to talk to, to talk me off the ledge I felt I was teetering between completely losing it and knowing things are okay. But the inconsisentency in his emails could of been the push that I didn'tneed to hop off that ledge if he didn't respond.  I don't know if our friendship is about that though either really, after talking every single day for weeks on end, spending hours upon hours alone... feelings were never really a topic... although I think he would listen...I think he would put his arms around me and let me cry. I think he would but its hard to tell.

I was going to email Jack, but didn't want to risk ruining your sunday night when I know Jill has to work this morning. I know you'd have listened and probably skyped and talked me through it but I'm not one for ruining your night if I don't really have to.

I don't have friends like that down here in Va. What I really needed... or need even now is someone to just  be here. I want to be able to put my head on your shoulder and just cry... just for a few minutes and then I swear I will be okay. I just hold everything in for so long and now its all bottled up and I fear I am going to lose control over the feelings that I hide away so well.  All this happened last night because of the day, the lack of people that I have to be strong around, and the idea that well... I really am kinda at this all alone. 

My siblings can't even talk to me about it, and how they are dealing because, my sister was still in a coma when my mom died and my other one is far away in Pensacola hanging out with her friends and very literally living the dream...

This week will be better though. I have a lot to look forward to. I have a doctor's appointment today, going to go and get a flu shot, then I am on call tonight, and then off tomorrow, I work wed, and thrusday but then am off friday, going to the Luke Bryan/ jason Aldean concert with some girls from work, going to the Spa/Salon Friday morning, taking a trip to brazil ;) I'm terrified... but... all in good fun. Going to breakout the cowboy boots, and hat and some short bluejean shorts for Friday night:)

So I got a lot to look forward to... just got to get myself out of this slump. Happy Monday All!

It was Friday Night

And I was in a good mood. I slipped on some knee socks, picked up a coffee and headed off to work. When he replied to my email and asked for a picture I tried to send one of my fun socks.... When I realized this morning it didn't go through I figured I would post a picture of my fun socks here... So... What do you think? Worthy of a Friday night?

Few things in life feel as Good...

                                   As removing your Bra after a long day... or night at work....

TMI Tuesday: August 14, 2012 - Any Regrets?

 

Thank you to ‘Rants from the Erotic Rogue‘ for this week’s TMI Tuesday.

 

Looking back on our lives, we can have a mix of reactions to the things we’ve done. When it comes to sex, our memories can color us with pride, fondness, nostalgia, indifference, or all too often, regret.

This week’s TMI Tuesday questions delve into things that people typically regret later in life. How much do you regret, if at all, any of the following?

 

1. Do you regret how you “lost” your virginity? If yes, why and to whom would you have preferred to have lost it?

 

Is there any women out there who don't regret the way they lost their virginity really? I don't think there is ever the perfect way to do it.  Its always a bit awkward, doesn't usually feel great. My regret... not waiting a little longer. It was the one year anniversary with my first real boyfriend. I was 17... It was on my couch... it wasn't real romantic, it didn't feel good, neither of us got off... He expected it more than I was really ready to give it up, but it was our anniversary, I made him wait a whole year... I was a silly teenager who thought it was just the next step...  It wasn't the greatest experiance but I don't really know what would of made it better... I was just glad we got that behind us.

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2. Have you ever lived a moment in your life where you said “Yeah, I’m not going to ever tell anyone about that.” Describe that moment or incident.

 

Yes, there was a situation, which involved unclear minds, my boyfriend and a close friend... we never talked about it after and i know none of us ever will...

3. Do you regret having acted on a sexual impulse? If yes, please describe.

 

Hmmm... Regret is such a strong word. I dont necissarily regret anything but I do think that I could of done without someexperiances.  A few boys that I would rather not do again. If I had to do it all again, I wouldn't spend a weekend with a rich lacrosse player... but it was good sex... just bad timing but looking back at it he reminds me an awful lot of Stiffler...

Yep, that guy.

4. Do you regret not having had sex with someone who you could have had sex? If yes, would you do it over and have sex?

 

Regret No. I have walked away from a few people that I can honestly think... damn... I so should have done that.

5. Do you regret not having asked out or tried to hook up with someone you really liked out of fear of rejection only to later learn that person wanted you, too? If yes, please describe.

 

The heart of the problem with Hermes.... I should have made a move. He should have made a move. Someone should have done something, then we could have left there not wondering what if...Not sure I can honestly say he ever really "wanted" me but I think he was at least remotely attracted to me.

 

On the other hand, I should have tried to date Brett or the sleeping bag kid... They are some of my what ifs... I know we were attracted to each other and we had great chemistry in both situations we just werne't able to make things work at the time. Looking back at it, I think sleeping bag kid and I really could have worked out in the long run... but then I wouldn't be where I am today... and that would be so sad.

6. Do you regret having done a particular sex act? If yes, please describe.

 

No, I think the things that I have done in a sexual matter have all been exciting and interesting and I have enjoyed the majority of them.   There is nothing that I can honestly say that I would never do again...

Bonus: Do you regret not having told someone you love them? Romantic, not familial or friendship love.

No. Not telling them never. I pretty much wear my heart on my sleeve and if I like you I will usually tell you straight up. I did tell a boy once that I loved him. I thought I might of, thought that maybe if I did we could make it work. His reply... " I don't know what love is" and he didn't. He wasn't lying to my for once then.  He was a liar and a cheater and we broke up when he had the nerve to slam me against the wall and put his hands on me... So... regret not saying it? Never... regret saying it? Only once.