Hello Everyone out there. Hows it going? I am eh. blah. I bought a hoagie yesterday brought it home. I ate a peice, my grandmother ate some, my son had some, and my daughter ate the bread and cheese. Last night my son was up all night throwing up, my grandmother up also throwing up, and today I have had an upset stomache but am not throwing up... So I am trying to fiugre out if it is a bug we picked up somewhere around the way or if it is some sort of food issue. I tossed the rest of the hoadie today just in case. I would rather be safe than sorry and its not worth it.
So Im sitting around the house, tying up some loose ends with my classes and taking care of my sick kiddo. Anyone with little kids knows though... he isn't sick until its too late. He's running around playing and then all of a sudden projectile vomit. BLAH. The weather is kinda chilly out and there is nothing to do outside until the weather breaks a little more. This weekend we are plowing the land and hopefully get some of the plants in the ground. I can't wait for the garden!!!
Otherwise everything else has been just rolling along. Atlas and I have been having hot, steamy, sex on an almost nightly basis. Well this is a nice break from studying but I have two finals tomarrow. I will update again soon.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
HNT Insane results...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I just need to vent a bit today. I didn't sleep well last night. Atlas and I climbed into bed around 1000 and were both sound asleep. However at 3am my daughter came into the bedroom to ask me to get her a juice box. Yes, I got up and got it put her back to bed adn tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't. So I wandered into the bathroom and saw Atlas' phone sitting on the sink charging. I reach over flip it open and check out the text messages. Something that I randomly do from time to time. There was a random array of work related texts, texts to me and then some random texts to a number that rang filmilar to me... but it said " ... one of the kids that he is responsibile for due to his jobs MOM"... hmmm random I think. there was a bunch of them so I start to read them from the begining then theres a break then again in the afternoon... "Good Morning." Atlas at 748 in the morning, shortly after he leaves our house, " Good morning How are you." " Good and yourself" "Good," " Its going to be an interesting week." Atlas. and then some other random texts... Nothing sexual, nothing out of the ordinary... just strange to me...
Atlas and I have gone a few rounds over cell phone use and text messages and the boundries of these things. Prior to us marrying Atlas used to text with a woman. They exchanged dirty texts and whatever but it was prior to marriage and I didn't really no about it much. Well shortly after the birth of our daughter we went home for a visit. Upon returning to Seattle Atlas was recieving text messages from "Mike". Upon seeing some of the messages perhaps ones that involves things like " I was going to take a bath and make myself cum thinking of you." got me quite upset. Think post partum furst time mother, only been married for a year and that puts you in my mind set... Well atlas promised to never text her again. And he didn't. He erased her number and that was that.
Then we moved back to the east coast to be closer to family. I moved back 6 months before he did. After about 6 months here I woke up late at night and looked at his phone to find messages of the same kind "I do look good today, for the meeting but Im bored out of my mind" Atlas " If I was there I would crawl under the table to suck your cock." UNknown... OH REALLY I thought when i saw this... I took the phone still opened to the text took atlas' asleep hand and placed the phone in it. I told him not to fucking come near me, and Im sure there was more, I was crying by the time I did that. We talked, I cried, he cried and apoligized, said it was nothing but stupid games on his phone. it was a girl his co worker always texts who took his business card and started messaging him, and it just got a bit out of control...
Anyway, after the tears and my anger, he promised not to text her anymore. I wrote her number down and kept it just in case. Well about two months after that as Atlas was outside cutting grass. He got a text from a " superior coworker" who i knew. He didn't seem like the kind of person to randomly send a text to ask how everything was going, guys don't just do that right? So I take out the number i put in safe keeping, typed it into his phone and hit send. Wouldn't you know that that "Superior coworker"'s name came up as if that's who I was calling... interesting right? So I confronted him, asked him why he was talking to her, better yet why he was lying about it. "I m not lying". he said. Putting someone else's name down as if it was their phone number is just as good as lying to me.
So that bring everyone up to date on why sometimes I randomlly check Atlas' text messages. Maybe I am crazy, maybe too pocessive, too jealous whatever. I always look at the aspect of how would Atlas feel when I do something. If I wrote dirty text messages about how much I want to suck someone's cock or how badly I want them to eat my pussy or fuck me" and atlas found those text messages I am sure that he would be angry and upset.
So what to do? Do I confront him over those random texts I found last night or should I wait until I find something more. Should I wait until i see messages about cock sucking and fucking and cumming before i let it get to me? I mean either way i kind of look like an asshole right? I trust Atlas not to go beyond text messages. But even then... is that too much. If the situation was reversed I know those text messages would be too much for him to take so why shouldn't it be too much for me. Why is there such a sexual double standard and should there be one?
I'm not angry, im not upset, not yet. Im just frustrated and I am not sure what to do about it.
Atlas and I have gone a few rounds over cell phone use and text messages and the boundries of these things. Prior to us marrying Atlas used to text with a woman. They exchanged dirty texts and whatever but it was prior to marriage and I didn't really no about it much. Well shortly after the birth of our daughter we went home for a visit. Upon returning to Seattle Atlas was recieving text messages from "Mike". Upon seeing some of the messages perhaps ones that involves things like " I was going to take a bath and make myself cum thinking of you." got me quite upset. Think post partum furst time mother, only been married for a year and that puts you in my mind set... Well atlas promised to never text her again. And he didn't. He erased her number and that was that.
Then we moved back to the east coast to be closer to family. I moved back 6 months before he did. After about 6 months here I woke up late at night and looked at his phone to find messages of the same kind "I do look good today, for the meeting but Im bored out of my mind" Atlas " If I was there I would crawl under the table to suck your cock." UNknown... OH REALLY I thought when i saw this... I took the phone still opened to the text took atlas' asleep hand and placed the phone in it. I told him not to fucking come near me, and Im sure there was more, I was crying by the time I did that. We talked, I cried, he cried and apoligized, said it was nothing but stupid games on his phone. it was a girl his co worker always texts who took his business card and started messaging him, and it just got a bit out of control...
Anyway, after the tears and my anger, he promised not to text her anymore. I wrote her number down and kept it just in case. Well about two months after that as Atlas was outside cutting grass. He got a text from a " superior coworker" who i knew. He didn't seem like the kind of person to randomly send a text to ask how everything was going, guys don't just do that right? So I take out the number i put in safe keeping, typed it into his phone and hit send. Wouldn't you know that that "Superior coworker"'s name came up as if that's who I was calling... interesting right? So I confronted him, asked him why he was talking to her, better yet why he was lying about it. "I m not lying". he said. Putting someone else's name down as if it was their phone number is just as good as lying to me.
So that bring everyone up to date on why sometimes I randomlly check Atlas' text messages. Maybe I am crazy, maybe too pocessive, too jealous whatever. I always look at the aspect of how would Atlas feel when I do something. If I wrote dirty text messages about how much I want to suck someone's cock or how badly I want them to eat my pussy or fuck me" and atlas found those text messages I am sure that he would be angry and upset.
So what to do? Do I confront him over those random texts I found last night or should I wait until I find something more. Should I wait until i see messages about cock sucking and fucking and cumming before i let it get to me? I mean either way i kind of look like an asshole right? I trust Atlas not to go beyond text messages. But even then... is that too much. If the situation was reversed I know those text messages would be too much for him to take so why shouldn't it be too much for me. Why is there such a sexual double standard and should there be one?
I'm not angry, im not upset, not yet. Im just frustrated and I am not sure what to do about it.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Just a quick update
Last night Atlas and I went out to a rundown bar down the road from our house. We met some of the VFD members that is in Atlas' department and had a few drinks. WE left there witha few of them and went bowling. Yes bowling. I think I may have scored a 54 for the last one but that wasn't the point of bowling anyway. It was a good time, a good buzz and a night out. Atlas and I made it home, retired to bed and soon enough I was between his legs. Eyes closed, hands behind his head, moans escaping from his lips. It was delectable. I moved from his cock to his chest and when I did we noticed something...his cock fit perfectly between my cleavage. This is of course new and interesting for us and we explaored it further. It was so fucking hot! I remember finishing him off with my mouth but when I woke up this morning, the laundry was done, put away, the kitchen clean and the kids fed. Atlas was laying in bed next to me to tell me how much he loves me and how much fun he had last night.
I am very blessed to have everything that I do and everyday I am thankful that it is Atlas that I share my life with.
I am very blessed to have everything that I do and everyday I am thankful that it is Atlas that I share my life with.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Friday Fill in. ( Im Trying it)
And...here we go!
1. I'd like ______to make a fresh fruit tart, watch a hockey game where my team wins, have a few drinks and sleep all night_______.
2. One of my most favorite romantic memories is ____Sitting between Atlas' legs and making out on the steps in front of a friend's condo on Mt. Washington in Pittsburgh watching the FOurth of July Fireworks. I think that is the day that I KNEW without a doubt that he was my one and only_____.
3. Last night, I had ___grilled tuna steak, fresh asparagus, baked potatoe, and blueberry win_______ for dinner.
4. Sorry for the _____lack of real blogging lately but I've been so damn busy________.
5. Can we ___just fuck___________ now?
6. One of my worst temptations is _waking up in the middle of the night to eat_______; ___Sometimes I substitute Atlas for food late at night because he is just as _____ hard to resist!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to _a hockey game____, tomorrow my plans include _daughter's soccer game, lunch out, chores around the house and maybe going out____ and Sunday, I want to __Watch hockey and relax__!
That wasn't too bad. Did I mention that Atlas and I made love last night and then again this morning before he went to work... mMmmmMMMMMmmmM He is delicious:)
1. I'd like ______to make a fresh fruit tart, watch a hockey game where my team wins, have a few drinks and sleep all night_______.
2. One of my most favorite romantic memories is ____Sitting between Atlas' legs and making out on the steps in front of a friend's condo on Mt. Washington in Pittsburgh watching the FOurth of July Fireworks. I think that is the day that I KNEW without a doubt that he was my one and only_____.
3. Last night, I had ___grilled tuna steak, fresh asparagus, baked potatoe, and blueberry win_______ for dinner.
4. Sorry for the _____lack of real blogging lately but I've been so damn busy________.
5. Can we ___just fuck___________ now?
6. One of my worst temptations is _waking up in the middle of the night to eat_______; ___Sometimes I substitute Atlas for food late at night because he is just as _____ hard to resist!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to _a hockey game____, tomorrow my plans include _daughter's soccer game, lunch out, chores around the house and maybe going out____ and Sunday, I want to __Watch hockey and relax__!
That wasn't too bad. Did I mention that Atlas and I made love last night and then again this morning before he went to work... mMmmmMMMMMmmmM He is delicious:)
Thursday, April 15, 2010
HNT Insanity
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Once every couple months
I feel grumpy. Like I feel like there is something going on that I just can't put my finger on. Like Im not feeling completely... satisfied. I don't mean sexually either. Atlas and I have incredible sex, often. But when I say unsatisfied thats the first thing that comes to mind. But thats not it. Its unsatisfied emotionally or something else. I just need something more... from Atlas. It takes me breaking down for him to understand that. Its my fault that it gets to this point though, when he stands at the door for 10 minutes asking me if I am sure that I am okay that he is going to play cards... But you would think that he would know, if he has to stand there for 10 minutes convincing himself that I am okay so he can put it straight in his mind so he can go out and play cards. I wanted so badly to go out this weekend. Almost to the point where tears fill my eyes.
I feel so trapped in my house, in my life. The semester is coming to an end but I have to take summer classes which leaves me no break between the spring and summer classes. I go from a schedule I don't like to one I can't stand with no break. I was supposed to go out with a friend from high school yesterday and get drinks but she blew me off... for the second time. Now I don't think I am going to try and make plans with her again. It was just such a let down twice that I don't want to deal with it again. I miss my old friends from Washington. I miss the people I used to work with, I miss the people who understood what I was going through.
We went to a restraunt this morning after our daughters soccer game. When we walked in an older man was sitting at a table and waved to Atlas. Atlas introduced his children... Then we sat down waiting for a table. As we were sitting there the older men waved Atlas over to the table. He sat down and talked with the man and what I assume was his wife. They called our name and I walked our children back to the table sat down and shortly after Atlas came back. He didn't introduce me, he didn't even say, "This is my wife." Next we came home, did a bunch of yard work... I worked out, made dinner, and took a shower. Settled down to watch the hockey game. Atlas was out in the kitchen when he phone went off. " are you coming to cards babe?" from Ed.... Atlas has been going to this poker game for over a year. I've never been there and to be completely honest I have never met anyone who plays there. I've seen a few, a girl working at the grocery store, an older woman at Sam's club, and the gentleman from earlier today but... Im just frustrated.
I over think things when I get in this type of mood. I know he's loyal. I know he loves me. I know these things and I don't question them... I just let this happen on occasion.
Now tomarrow we are supposed to have company over in the evening. I had plans to get some stuff done outside during the day, but when atlas gets home late and and sleeps in I am left with all the responsibilities that are drowning me...
I feel so trapped in my house, in my life. The semester is coming to an end but I have to take summer classes which leaves me no break between the spring and summer classes. I go from a schedule I don't like to one I can't stand with no break. I was supposed to go out with a friend from high school yesterday and get drinks but she blew me off... for the second time. Now I don't think I am going to try and make plans with her again. It was just such a let down twice that I don't want to deal with it again. I miss my old friends from Washington. I miss the people I used to work with, I miss the people who understood what I was going through.
We went to a restraunt this morning after our daughters soccer game. When we walked in an older man was sitting at a table and waved to Atlas. Atlas introduced his children... Then we sat down waiting for a table. As we were sitting there the older men waved Atlas over to the table. He sat down and talked with the man and what I assume was his wife. They called our name and I walked our children back to the table sat down and shortly after Atlas came back. He didn't introduce me, he didn't even say, "This is my wife." Next we came home, did a bunch of yard work... I worked out, made dinner, and took a shower. Settled down to watch the hockey game. Atlas was out in the kitchen when he phone went off. " are you coming to cards babe?" from Ed.... Atlas has been going to this poker game for over a year. I've never been there and to be completely honest I have never met anyone who plays there. I've seen a few, a girl working at the grocery store, an older woman at Sam's club, and the gentleman from earlier today but... Im just frustrated.
I over think things when I get in this type of mood. I know he's loyal. I know he loves me. I know these things and I don't question them... I just let this happen on occasion.
Now tomarrow we are supposed to have company over in the evening. I had plans to get some stuff done outside during the day, but when atlas gets home late and and sleeps in I am left with all the responsibilities that are drowning me...
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
TMI
TMI Tuesday #231 - Sexual Healing
1. Name one thing that turns you on with unprecedented success.
Kissing my neck. Especailly from behind, I will instantly get weak in the knees.
2. Quick! Look around you and name 3 ordinary items that could be used sexually.
Candles, Lotion, and a hairbrush?
3. Do you consider sex good even if you don't orgasm?
Yes, I enjoy the leading up to just as much as the actual orgasm. Sometimes that part of it is such a let down anyway.
4. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, what sexual position or act would you like to experience from the other side?
I would definately be all about trying out doggie style and I am sure I would love to recieve some oral.
5.Describe a sexual fantasy in 10 words or less.
Making love on a boat under the stars.
Bonus (optional): Pretend you're a doctor and a patient has come in with an "ache". What is your course of "treatment"?
A good massage that leads to more.
1. Name one thing that turns you on with unprecedented success.
Kissing my neck. Especailly from behind, I will instantly get weak in the knees.
2. Quick! Look around you and name 3 ordinary items that could be used sexually.
Candles, Lotion, and a hairbrush?
3. Do you consider sex good even if you don't orgasm?
Yes, I enjoy the leading up to just as much as the actual orgasm. Sometimes that part of it is such a let down anyway.
4. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, what sexual position or act would you like to experience from the other side?
I would definately be all about trying out doggie style and I am sure I would love to recieve some oral.
5.Describe a sexual fantasy in 10 words or less.
Making love on a boat under the stars.
Bonus (optional): Pretend you're a doctor and a patient has come in with an "ache". What is your course of "treatment"?
A good massage that leads to more.
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