HNT, The Rice Test

Today is my second consult with the surgeon. I was told by a friend to try "the rice test" to see if the size and everything is what I wanted. The idea of the test is so much rice is equal to so many cc's. So you use a knee high fill it with the desired amount of rice and test it in your bra. The surgeon said 350-400cc's is what he would suggest for me so i tried it and it looked okay. I mean it is rice and it was shoved in my bra like a teenager stuff tissues down there but it looked good and I am getting more excited everyday. Its snowing... AGAIN. Supposed to get another 6+ inches. When will it ever end??? Blah, I say that now but when spring comes there are more chores to do and more work needs done... but it would be outside work... sigh... I can't wait.

Happy HNT!!!

TMI Tuesday

Well I am not a big fan of the questions, my answers were kinda unorigonal and lame and I didn't feel like typing about it. How is everyone out here in blogland? I am doing well, getting back into the swing of classes although this classload seems to be a lot mildly than last semesters. This is my most unfavorite time of the year. The snow, is begining to melt (which i love) but now is muddy, and dirty. The whitness is tinged with road crud and the reminst of salt, sand, and ash that was spread on the roads. The roads are a mess, pothold big enough to lose one of my Silverado tires in, and half the road scraped up and pushed to the side of the road by the plows.

I am looking forward to spring. I got out all of my seeds, sat down and planned out our garden. I will probably plant them later on this week. I can't wait to get down in the garden in the dirt, walk between the rows of vegtables that are all home grown. I love putting on my "shit kicker" boots and a bikini top and working in the yard. I can't wait to open up the pool and let the cool water rinse over my sunburned back. I look forward to sneaking out of the house stripping all of my clothes off and swimming at night. To tan topless on the deck, and to enjoy all that summer has to offer. Right now I peer out the window, and all I see are shades of grays. The skins not blue, the sun doesn't shine, the trees have no leaves and the snow isn't even white anymore. Please spring show up soon!

Im not sure if any of that is really TMI but its what I am feeling right now. The winter just seems to drag on.

HNT, Thinking warm and sunny thoughts

So... today was my appointment with the surgeon and he actually made it. So Atlas and I were pleasantly surprised. He seems to be really good, over 13,000 breast augmentations. He listened to what I wanted and he spent a good hour and a half one on one with us. He did an exam and measurements and we discussed everything. We set up a March 9th at 2pm. He is going to do the incison under the breast, and use a mentor saline implant. The surgery takes place in the surgical suite in his office. He has a full staff and preforms surgery there 4 days a week. I am starting to get super excited. We have another consult next week that talks about all of the risks and everything that goes with it. It also is to discuss everything leading up to the surgery I guess there is special soap that he wants me to use for like 2 weeks and he said he has a very strict procedure. I am really really glad Atlas was able to go with me. It is really awesome that he is so supportive through this. He told the Dr that this is not his idea that he loves me just how I am and that this is something that I want for me. The surgeon said that my breasts are very normal and that I simply lost fullness due to having children. Well... duh! I breastfed for 4 years and was a D now that I have stopped and the milk went away I am about a small B. He said that the implants will make me a full C small D. He specailizes in natural looking bresats and said that if I want something larger he is not the right surgeon for us. So... next week is another consult and the surgery needs to be paid in full at that time. We have the money in the bank so... that is not a problem. Wow. I can't believe this is really happening. I'm really starting to get excited. I think Atlas is starting to get excited over it too. He's not a boob man he is all about a nice ass but I think he will really apprecaite a nice rack :) I know I do.

Happy HNT!!! (Picture taken last may)

I need some advice.

So tomarrow is my consult with the surgeon. I am sure that this is what I want to do. The hardest thing for me to deal with is the fact that I am going to a decent amount of money on it. I can think of one hungred things better to spend the money on but really... when is the next time I am going to have the time, money, and support to do this? So I am going to talk to the Doctor tomarrow and see what he thinks would be best. I want to be a full C small D. That's what I was when I was breastfeeding so I know I have the "room" for it, I am 5'7 so I know I have the frame to carry that without looking funny or tipping over. I will definately keep everyone updated after my appointment and let you know what is going on. I am very excited. Atlas is going to take off work to go with me, he said that it is important for him to be there for me, to know that he is supportive. LOL... either that or he just doens't want me topless around another man without him there. Haha, either way I am glad he is going to go.

In other news I think I need some advice. There are some people that are coming back to town and have mentioned they wanted to get together with Atlas (via facebook). When I say people I mean girls. Girls he went to high school with. I am 7 years younger than Atlas so just to put things in perspective when he was going to prom I was 5th grade. When he was learning to drive I was learning to multiply. LOL. Anyway, They invited him out to eat one night and to go bowling the next. They said he can birng me but their spouses are staying home with their kids. *Yes they are all married* Okay, am I sounding childish?
I just do not know how comfortable I am going to be around these girls. Oh did I mention that, one girl is the first girls he ever made out with, and one girl is the girl he lost his virginity to, and one girl gave him and his best friend head in the same day at her house, one girl gave him unwantedness when she cheated on his friend with him. I must have forgotten to share that. So, it doesn't sound like the most respectable group of women, definatly not the kind of girl I was in high school. Definatly not the kind of people I hung out with then or now. Granted people change and they are grown women with husbands and children and lives but still... Does anyone else think it is going to be mildly uncomforatble while they are all laughing and joking around talking about things that happened when I was too young to even know what they are talking about? Or is that the point, that was then and he is with me now???
I tried to explain it to Atlas, I said " would you want to hang out with the guy I lst my virginity to, and the first guy I made out with in the same room at the same time" he said " it wouldn't bother me." He doesn't understand and maybe I am overreacting, overthinking it. I agreed to go with him, more to satisfy him than to actually meet these people. He sais that if I didn't go he wasn't going at all. He swears we will have fun but I don't see this ending well. I'm not worried about him wanting them or getting feelings for them or even lusting... Its not like that, he knows what he has and I know he doesn't want anything more so what is it in me that is telling me this isn't going to be fun.

Any advice would help. I told him I would go but still... I'm weary.

Its easier to keep up than catch up

So I decided I was not trecking out into the 6+ inches of fresh snow to drive an hour each way, probably more since the roads are bad, to sit in a class that I don't enjoy and don't need to be in. Its been a while since I made an actual post but its been difficult with all the snow and kids and atlas at home non stop. Lets see, two fridays ago we got slammed with snow. 24 inches in one night. So by monday nothing was really cleaned up so school was canceled for the little one. I still managed to make it to my fill day of classes, then tuesday word was another storm was coming, and it did , dropping another 6-8 inches of snow. Yikes. No school for me or the kids for the rest of the week. Atlas didn't make it to work on Wendesday. Thursday was to be my consult with the surgeon but he was unable to make it so I also didn't make it. It was rescheduled for this thursday but I did manage to set a surgery date with the secretary in case I decide i like this guy and want him to do the surgery. Its March 9th and 2pm. Sooo I will keep everyone updated. Friday Atlas had a Dr appointment and everything went really well. We spent much of the day out and about.
As we were driving home from the Dr Appointment the Oscar Meyer Weiner Mobile drove by us!!!! It was so funny, I pulled out my phone and snapped a quick picture. The license plate said "Bologna". Yes. It was the high light of my day. Saturday was Atlas' birthday and the day before Valentine's day. We didn't make any plans other than finding a babysitter so we spent some of the night wandering around looking for a place to eat. We decided on a Mexican restraunt, and started with margaritas and crown and coke. After dinner we went to a local bar and had a few drinks, mind you its still snowing, there was no one there but us so we left and went to another bar, more people, Atlas played a few games of pool and then we went to a hotel for the night.
Both of us a bit buzzed we fell into the bed almost too tired to do anything. I couldnt let that happen though, it was afterall Atlas' birthday, or valentine's day or somewhere in between. So I climbed between his legs and gave him, I'd have to say the best head I have ever given anyone in my life. Well, that's my opinion at least, Atlas was quite satisfied and we both passed out soon after that. I was awaken the next morning to Atlas' hand between my legs. I climbed on top of him and began to ride him. There was a lot of position changes, it was a lot of fun.
Atlas and I came together, I was laying on my stomache, Atlas had his hand firmly on my upper back holding me down. It is by far my favorite position. We cleaned up, got dressed and was on our way home by 9am. We stopped at the grocery store, bought 2 dozen eggs, bacon, bread, milk, coffee and oj. We went home and made an awesome breakfast together.
Later that night we watched Couples Retreat, funny, actually i laughed to the point of tears on two occasions but not as funny throughout the movie. We cuddled up in bed and just held eachother that night. Happy Valentine's Day!

That brings me to today, playing hooky, well kind of. Its not worth me wrecking my truck, that is paid off, for the sake of sitting in a class I don't like or have a test in. I do have a midterm tomarrow so I will have to study in alittle bit but I did promise the kids I'd make cookies today. Hopefully I will be able to write again soon.

TMI Tuesday

TMI Tuesday #227 - Fat Tuesday Edition


The Valentine's Day Edition.


Have you had sex with another person in 2010? Have you passed on an opportunity to sex with another person in 2010?

Sex with another person? Like not by myself or not with Atlas? I did not have sex with anyone other than Atlas in 2010, 2009, 2008, 2007,2006,2005, and 2004... wow... Have I passed on the opportunity to have sex with anyone else? Not that anyone was throwing them selves at me but I am a girl, a decent looking girl, and Im sure if I was looking for it, it wouldn't be hard to find... *but I'm not looking*

What is the funniest thing you have ever said or done during sex? (Orgasmic facial expressions do not count.)

I'm not sure what the funniest thing I have ever said or done during sex is. I know Atlas and I laugh during sex on a regular basis. I think it is important to enjoy each other and be comfortble even if you do do something funny.

What is the first thing you notice about a member of the opposite sex?

I am a big fan of big guys. I like a man that I can feel safe and protected around. So I guess *size* is the first thing I notice. I notice eyes a lot. I am a big hockey fan and I am always picking out someone's eyes as they are playing.

What is the best pick-up line you have ever heard? Every used? Ever been used on you?

I was a bartender for a while and I heard a lot of them. Cheesy cheesy lines. " Are your pants mirrored? -- What are you talking about--" Becuase I can see myself in them". I have never had to use a pick up line. I am more of a smile and glance at you kinda girl. I can do some serious flirting with my eyes.

Where is the most unique you have ever had sex?

Hmmm... Like I have mentioned previously on this blog I am alittle lame when it comes to places to have sex. Atlas and I had sex in our car, in the middle of our driveway, in the middle of the day once before we got home to relieve the babysitter from her duties. We have had sex in the pool on many occassions, we attempt the shower but our height differences usually makes it uncomfortable, in the bathroom at a hotel while our friends and my mother were in the other room, but unique... Sorry, I'm kinda lame.
Bonus (as in optional): Do you pee in the shower? If so, has any SO known that you pee in the shower? Has any SO peed in the shower?

Hahahah, that's so funny. I do not pee in the shower as I usually shower with both of my children and the height differences make it inappropriate to pee in the shower. Atlas does pee in the shower and he makes a point of peeing on my feet if i am in there. I think he likes that i squeal and punch him when he does it. Gross I know but if its far from the worst thing I will ever have on my feet.

Happy Birthday Atlas.

It is Atlas' Birthday so I will make this short and sweet as I believe we have a day of events planned. He is the man that makes me giggle like a little girl and laugh until tears roll down my cheeks. He gives me butterflies when he looks at me from across the room. I can read his eyes and know what he wants. He makes my toes curl, my legs shake and my heart beat faster. He has seen me at my worst, and at my very best. He has picked me up from failure and celebrated my successes with. We have been together through separations (due to work), where i waited by the mailbox for a letter or checked my email 1093857474929342994 times a day just hoping I would see his name. He is my everything, my husband, the father of our children, my lover, and my best friend. Here's to many many many more birthdays together! I love you!

HNT, Snowed In

Sorry for the lack of self picture but we have been snowed in since last Friday. We have about 32 inches of snow. Kids have not had school all week and I have not had school since Tuesday. Today is my consultant with the surgeon but he is snowed in at his house. The office keeps calling me to update me on his status so we will see if I get to meet him today or not. Atlas has a Dr. appt tomarrow and I will be accompanying him since they are going to loop him up some. Will keep everyone updated. Stay warm! Happy HNT

TMI Tuesday 5

TMI Tuesday #226 - Deadly Sins Edition (repeat)


1. LUST: Besides your current Significant Other who do you lust for or have you lusted for?

I lust for my spouse A LOT! Like I wish I could have him like 2 three times a day. hehehe. I truthfully don't lust after anyone else. On occassion I really find Johnny Depp (only as Jack Sparrow) to be super delicious. In the past I had a thing for pro wrestlers, but it wasn't a lust thing it was more of a "I want to make out with them and hang out with them, not fuck them kinda thing.

2. GLUTTONY: What food brings out your inner glutton?

Hmmm.. I try really hard to eat well. I love lady locks and just in general good food. I am a big fan of steak and fried foods but I try to eat sparingly what I can.

3. GREED: What are you greedy for?

Time. I always need more time, and more time alone especailly.

4. SLOTH: What is your plan for an ideal day of sloth?

Sleep in, breakfast in bed, nap, do homework, sleep, eat, sleep...

5. WRATH: Describe a time that you let out a can of whoop ass on someone.

I'm not one for physical battles but I have been in a few scuffles in my time. All of them over stupid boys that I was dating... I should of figured then that if someone wanted to fight for them I should of just gave them to them without a fight. Haha, I am pretty vicious with my words when I want to be. I made a grown woman cry in a feminist theory class last year. ( I do not belong in a class like that) We were discussing vegetarian feminism or something like that and someone mentioned men as hunters and women as gatherers. I simply put "I hunt". the girl replied "why do you hunt." "Because we eat it," "You could go to the store and get food there to eat, you don't need to go shoot inocent animals." Brush off how stupid that comment is because it gets much better, I didn't talk about slaughter houses and how gruesome they are. " Population control." " So you hunt to control the population of deer?" "Yes. Haven't you ever hit a deer with your car? There are too many of them" ( I live in PA and it is 3rd in the country for most deer/vehicle accidents). "No and I don't know anyone who has" Now she was just getting stupid. " Has anyone in here hit a deer with there car?" I as well as half the class raises their hand. "Fine, population control like the chinese aborting female fetus' becuase of overpopulation." At this point I just stopped looked at the professor as if asking her if she wanted to stop me. She did nothing " Yes, just like that. So the next time a chinese woman runs out in front of my car while I am driving down a back road I will start hunting them too, if that will make you feel better. " THe girl got teary eyed and stood up to walk out of the room, that's when the professor stepped in.

6. ENVY: Who or what do you envy? Why?

On occassion I envy couples iwth no children for the simple fact that they can do what they want, whenever they want. But then I see my kids and I know that perhaps they want exactly what I have.

7. PRIDE: Have you ever had to swallow your pride? What are you proud of?

hmmm... In my profession I had to go through a time when all I did was swallow my pride. Every part of who I was or what I was proud of before was ruined. But from that experiance I learned, I grew and I became a stronger, prouder, and better person.

HNT 4, a pair of jeans that fit just right

Atlas left this morning and won't be back until tommarow afternoon. We are expecting A LOT of snow tomarow and into Saturday. Sounds like a good time to get snowed in. I slept so amazing last night. Then this morning I was awoken the best way that I can think of. I heard Atlas lock our bedroom door as he came back to bed after his shower. He started kissing my neck from behind and pulled down my shorts. He slid his naked body against mine. "I want you." he whispered in my ear. "I'm all yours." I said sleepily.

Happy HNT!!!!

Wendesday is such a long day for me. I try to prepare myself mentally for the 13 hours of school that I have to sit through but I have no one to blame but myself for the scheduling. However I would rather go 1 day a week for that many hours than 5 days a week for 2 hours, considering I drive 45 minutes to and from school.

Everything on the homefront has been pretty normal, pretty stable. Atlas has to go away for work on Thursday and Friday. Spouses were invited and encouraged to come however... I was unable to find a babysitter and when I did find a sitter for both days I was unable to find someone to come and let our dogs out/ stay at our house with the puppies. What a scam huh? Atlas gets to go to a ski resort for 2 days, dinner, drinks, hotel room and I get to stay home with the kiddies and dogs. I know I know don't bitch its for work... but come on! Its like a mini vacation, dinner and drinks and 4 hours of meetings in 2 days... Scammers.

Anyway, I started that last night and will finsih it now (WED.). I left school early today because I wasn't feeling well. Last night Atlas had a minor could of been major issue with one of his employees, which he had to attend to. So he didn't get home till after 1am. I didn't go to sleep until around 11 and when he got home I woke up to talk to him.

We made love last night. Like passionate, intimate, missonary position, quiet middle of the night sex. It was perfect. Atlas came home in a sour emotional mood and I comforted him, I gave him the best advice that I could, and I listened to him talk through his thoughts. Then we were cuddling and I looked at him and said " Why don't you get under the covers and make out with me." He looked at me, " why don't you get under my cover and make out with me." I slid my shorts off and climbed out from my covers and under his. We faced eachother and he took my face in his hands and we kissed. He looked in my eyes and he told me how much he loved me. I kissed him, and he rolled me on my back and climbed between my legs. He kissed my neck and pulled my t-shirt up exposed my breasts. He sucked on each of them and moved back to my face. I kissed his neck and his shoulder as he moved over top of me. In the end we came together in and laid together for a few minutes before exhaustion got the best of us. I was awoken around 4 when our youngest came scampering in. He crawled in bed with me and I was unable to go back to sleep before the alarm went off at 5am for me to get ready for school.

I only stayed at school long enough to get through my two tougher classes and then I went home to take a nap which never happened. I drank a Dr. Pepper on the way home and had enough energy to get the laundry done, the dishwasher loaded, the upstairs vaccuumed and red up enough to relax. After I finish this blog I am going to start working on my homework as I have enough of it to keep me busy for a long while. I also have to try and think of something interesting for HNT tomarrow. Hmmm... any suggestions?

TMI Tuesday 4

TMI Tuesday #225 - Six Degrees Edition


1. What famous people share your birthday? Any the same year as well as day?

I googled this to find someone. And truthfully it was no one that I knew. My birthday is November 16th. I figured there would be a lot more considering its like 9 months after Valentine's day.

2. Have you ever shared an address (before, during or after) with anyone famous?

That is definatly no. I have lived in some pretty lame places.

3. Who else has your name? (Google yourself and see who else shows up)

There is no one that has the same name as me. But there is a model (smoking hot BTW) who has the same first name as myself.


4. Test the Six Degrees theory. Do you know someone who might know someone who might know someone who might know someone who might know someone who knows President Obama? How about, say Dolly Parton?

President Obama... definately. I have friends that work at the white house who I'm sure knows someone who knows someone. Dolly Parton... hmmmm... I know a guy who is in a band who just got signed to a country deal with a record company who I am sure someone there knows someone who knows someone who knows... yeah.

5. Try the sexual version. Have you had sex with someone who might have . . . anyone famous? (e.g. I slept with a woman who had slept with a Hollywood stuntman, who might have....)

Well... I once stayed in the same hotel as some famous people and we hung out in their room but I did not sleep with them and neither did any of my friends... its probably why they invited us out to party again when they came back to town.

Hmmm... This weeks TMI was not really TMI... I did make out with someone who was/is famous once. Still if he is on TV or someone mentions him while I am around Atlas shoots me a funny look. I have pictures to prove too so... Its not just some story I made up.

Weekend review

I am sure that i could find something more productive to do with this time. My oldest at preschool, my youngest running around with a strawberry rice crispie treat, and in her room, dogs all behaving. I should be doing some homework, or laundry, or dishes or vaccuum this mornings mess but I can't. I just don't feel like it.

This weekend was not productive and really nothing spectacular. It was like a step backward in the progress that Atlas and I have been making. Friday night we had planned a date night but when the sitter fell through we found ourselves sitting on the couch in our bedroom. 8 o'clock and the kids are all asleep in grams bed, Atlas and I are alone. I didn't really feel like just sitting at home and Atlas suggested we just run up the street to a small bar and have a few drinks. I let gram know and we snuck away. The main goal of the night was to get out and enjoy ourselves but before we even got our sandwiches Atlas says, "My dad and everyone are going on a quad trip the week after Easter." "Yea," I said already feeling the tears well up in my eyes just thinking about it. " Yea, that means I can go too or yeah we'll talk about it later." "Yeah we will talk about it later." I didn't want to talk about it, not there, not then, I wanted to have a good time, I wanted to be away from the house and the kids and enjoy eachother but he pushed on. " I figured we could go on vacation the week before anywhere you want and then come back for easter and then I could go with my dad". He always throws in with his dad because I am a sucker for family bonding. "What about the kids." "What about them? We will take them with us." " What kind of vacation is that? If I go on vacation I don't want to chase around a 2 year old or listen to my 4 year old who never stops talking." " I thought it sounded like a good deal, in March you get your boobs done and in April I can go on this trip." Wow, he is already using it against me and I haven't even seen a doctor I have just simply talked about it. The first thing that I have ever wanted to do for myself and he is alreayd using it against me. " I don't wnat to talk about it here." I could feel my face getting red, I was angry, embarressed, and hurt. " When is it my turn, Atlas? Since we have had children I haven't had a break, not a weekend away without at least one of them attatched to my hip." " Well, if I had tits then it would be an issue but I don't." He is referring to the fact that I breastfed our children for four years straight! My daughter didn't give it up until my son was born and my son just stopped in October which is when my daughter turned 4. Since we have had children Atlas has taken multiple bow fishing trips, multiple fishing trips, quad riding trips, as well as being separated on a regular basis for months at a time do to our profession. Everytime I am left, home alone, with our children. " I don't want to talk about it now" and with that it was dropped. I found myself drunk enough by the end of the night to stumble home adn strip my clothes off on the way to our bed. Right as we were starting to get comfortable our youngest comes running into the room, he climbs in bed between us and falls quickly back asleep. Well... We moved down to the couch and finished our business there. After I cleaned myself up I went to lay in bed. Atlas walked to the side of our bed, " Do you care if I go play for alittle while" I looked up, more drunk than asleep... " You didn't have to take me out, get me drunk and screw me just so you could go play tonight. You know I don't care." He kissed my forehead as I passed out. I awoke at 5am to Atlas crawling into bed. He smelled of cigars and poker room. I rolled over our kids would be up within an hour or so and someone has to be a parent.

Saturday came and went with nothing spectular. We picked up Atlas' quad from the shop where it has sat since his last quad trip that blew up the engine. We stopped at his parents "farm" and hung out with his father and uncle. It was a nice day, it was really cold out and the only thing keeping us warm was a woodburner by the time we got home the children were both whooped and quickly changed into pajamas and went to sleep. Atlas dyed my hair, I showered and we watched a movie. When the movie was over I rolled over and he rubbed my back. I fell asleep. I felt Atlas lean over the bed. " Can I go play?" I just aved my hand at him and hardly remember him asking. I woke at 430 when he shut our bedroom door. Sunday is traditionally his day to wake uo with the kids but I knew it wasn't going to happen. I woke up with the kids and made a great breakfast. Some of our friends came over to watch hockey and the probowl. It was a nice day, Atlas fell asleep on the floor with our company still here around 8. They took that as their cue to leave. I woke Atlas up and we went to bed.