So much has happened this past week that I just need an outlet. Nothing has happened in my life but everyone around me seems to be having life altering moments. One woman who I was relatively close with, who saved my marriage when I didn't know it needed saved, got divorced. She was married at a young age, her and her husband seemed happy, content, They do have two children, a son and a daughter who are both autistic. I would love to hear what happened but... I doubt I will ever know what actually happened. We worked together before, close together and she did flirt, with a few of the men we worked with, and there were rumors that more had happened with a certain doctor... but I never believed them because she was always very family oriented, very marriage oriented. Her husband was a stay at home dad while she worked as a Nurse. Interesting.

One of the wives of Atlas' coworker lost her baby. It was not just a miscarriage which is devastating on its own but she was 20 weeks along. She went in for her ultrasound to find out the sex and they could not find a heartbeat. I was heart broken to hear the news. It was to be their fourth child, an ooops baby but a baby none the less. They had a name picked out, the siblings were excited, and she had to go home after the ultrasound carrying a baby that was no longer alive. She had to wait 3 days before they induced her, and she delivered a baby that was already an angel. That just confirms the fact in my mind that I am completely content with my life, my children, and my husband and I do not desire anymore children.

Another friend of mine confided in me that her and her husband recently brought a third into the bedroom, and was considering 'dating' her as a couple. I find this so intriguing because I never even knew that they were considering that type of lifestyle.

Atlas is working long hours. He was promoted, and is taking the new job in stride. Its a good thing he has long legs and big feet. This has recently been putting a bit of downer on the lovin. It seems that our needs just aren't intertwining. One day I will be hot and ready to roll and I go shower and come out and Atlas is asleep. The next day Atlas is pawing to get my clothes off and I can barely stay awake long enough to get the kids in bed. Atlas is gone for the weekend as he will be next weekend and a few days in between. This is a busy time of year for our type of work and soon it will all be done and over with. There is such a huge focus on Atlas and his career right now. So much so that I am feeling left out, A "what about me" feeling". Atlas came up to me the other day, and said " I know right now I'm not what you need me, Im not putting the time into you that you deserve but I promise that someday, I will be completely focused, completely dedicated on everything that you need". It made me cry, and sometimes I think, its hard to see how bright our future is going to be, when its so damn cloudy today.

Then I look at the lives of people around me, and I see my husband who tries, who adores me, and my wonderful, beautiful, healthy, intelligent children and I know that I am blessed, and I am thankful.

Sex toys....

Im bored and I need suggestions of some fun stuff for me, and for hubby and I. Thanks a head of time cause I know someone out there will have good advice.

Is the Promise of 'someday' enough to get me through today?

I know I've been a bad blogger but I am gonna try and get into the swing of things again with summer dwindling and school starting again... I will be back soon.

I've been a horrible blogger

I know i know, I've been gone for a while. All summer actually, and not gone, not gone at all, just lurking. I haven't had the words to put into a blog and truthfully haven't had the time to sort through them. Everything is going well here. The summer is closing and it makes me extremely sad. I always feel like I have such big plans for summer and at the end they all seemed to have failed. Like epically failed.

I wanted to get away for a few days. That's it, I don't need a big eloborate vacation. A tent, a fishing pole, and a campfire would of worked just fine. But I didn't even get that oppertunity this year. I wanted to go to Great Lakes and see my baby sister graduate from bootcamp. I know what it feels like. There is no other feeling in the world and whether you serve 4 years of 30 you only get to graduate from bootcamp once and that was also blown out of the water.

I'm reflecting and I am kinda sad. We had the house to clean and stain ( loghome) I cleaned it, it took me two days... and then we didn't stain it, so... now we have log house that doesn't have any stain on it... If I had the 15K I would hire professionals but I don't know where all the money goes. The deck is cleaned, stained and sealed and that alone was a huge project, most of which I did... as Atlas work schedule is uncondusive to helping around the house even when it stays light out till 2100.

The hot tub still sits full of garbage... the goats are still living in a barn that is halfway falling in... and my mom, grandmother and sister all just got back from vacation last night. I wasn't invited because I have two small children and who wants that cramping thier style while they sit on a beach somewhere.

Another reason I blog today is I am just frustrated. I think in all aspects of my life. I go far above and beyond to be a good mother, a good wife. I shine Atlas' FUCKING shoes!!! I set his uniform out, I even wrote his evaluations for him, I did all this last night after everyone was asleep ( did I mention the sleeping issuesI have) but i

Another day in Paradise

Hello Everyone out there. Hows it going? I am eh. blah. I bought a hoagie yesterday brought it home. I ate a peice, my grandmother ate some, my son had some, and my daughter ate the bread and cheese. Last night my son was up all night throwing up, my grandmother up also throwing up, and today I have had an upset stomache but am not throwing up... So I am trying to fiugre out if it is a bug we picked up somewhere around the way or if it is some sort of food issue. I tossed the rest of the hoadie today just in case. I would rather be safe than sorry and its not worth it.

So Im sitting around the house, tying up some loose ends with my classes and taking care of my sick kiddo. Anyone with little kids knows though... he isn't sick until its too late. He's running around playing and then all of a sudden projectile vomit. BLAH. The weather is kinda chilly out and there is nothing to do outside until the weather breaks a little more. This weekend we are plowing the land and hopefully get some of the plants in the ground. I can't wait for the garden!!!

Otherwise everything else has been just rolling along. Atlas and I have been having hot, steamy, sex on an almost nightly basis. Well this is a nice break from studying but I have two finals tomarrow. I will update again soon.

HNT Insane results...

This is my week 4 progress picture from my workout. Im getting where I want to be. Another 5 weeks of work outs planned and then I am off to enjoy my summer with swimmnig and yardword and gardening and all the active things I can't do in the winter.

HHNT!!!!

I just need to vent a bit today. I didn't sleep well last night. Atlas and I climbed into bed around 1000 and were both sound asleep. However at 3am my daughter came into the bedroom to ask me to get her a juice box. Yes, I got up and got it put her back to bed adn tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't. So I wandered into the bathroom and saw Atlas' phone sitting on the sink charging. I reach over flip it open and check out the text messages. Something that I randomly do from time to time. There was a random array of work related texts, texts to me and then some random texts to a number that rang filmilar to me... but it said " ... one of the kids that he is responsibile for due to his jobs MOM"... hmmm random I think. there was a bunch of them so I start to read them from the begining then theres a break then again in the afternoon... "Good Morning." Atlas at 748 in the morning, shortly after he leaves our house, " Good morning How are you." " Good and yourself" "Good," " Its going to be an interesting week." Atlas. and then some other random texts... Nothing sexual, nothing out of the ordinary... just strange to me...

Atlas and I have gone a few rounds over cell phone use and text messages and the boundries of these things. Prior to us marrying Atlas used to text with a woman. They exchanged dirty texts and whatever but it was prior to marriage and I didn't really no about it much. Well shortly after the birth of our daughter we went home for a visit. Upon returning to Seattle Atlas was recieving text messages from "Mike". Upon seeing some of the messages perhaps ones that involves things like " I was going to take a bath and make myself cum thinking of you." got me quite upset. Think post partum furst time mother, only been married for a year and that puts you in my mind set... Well atlas promised to never text her again. And he didn't. He erased her number and that was that.

Then we moved back to the east coast to be closer to family. I moved back 6 months before he did. After about 6 months here I woke up late at night and looked at his phone to find messages of the same kind "I do look good today, for the meeting but Im bored out of my mind" Atlas " If I was there I would crawl under the table to suck your cock." UNknown... OH REALLY I thought when i saw this... I took the phone still opened to the text took atlas' asleep hand and placed the phone in it. I told him not to fucking come near me, and Im sure there was more, I was crying by the time I did that. We talked, I cried, he cried and apoligized, said it was nothing but stupid games on his phone. it was a girl his co worker always texts who took his business card and started messaging him, and it just got a bit out of control...

Anyway, after the tears and my anger, he promised not to text her anymore. I wrote her number down and kept it just in case. Well about two months after that as Atlas was outside cutting grass. He got a text from a " superior coworker" who i knew. He didn't seem like the kind of person to randomly send a text to ask how everything was going, guys don't just do that right? So I take out the number i put in safe keeping, typed it into his phone and hit send. Wouldn't you know that that "Superior coworker"'s name came up as if that's who I was calling... interesting right? So I confronted him, asked him why he was talking to her, better yet why he was lying about it. "I m not lying". he said. Putting someone else's name down as if it was their phone number is just as good as lying to me.

So that bring everyone up to date on why sometimes I randomlly check Atlas' text messages. Maybe I am crazy, maybe too pocessive, too jealous whatever. I always look at the aspect of how would Atlas feel when I do something. If I wrote dirty text messages about how much I want to suck someone's cock or how badly I want them to eat my pussy or fuck me" and atlas found those text messages I am sure that he would be angry and upset.

So what to do? Do I confront him over those random texts I found last night or should I wait until I find something more. Should I wait until i see messages about cock sucking and fucking and cumming before i let it get to me? I mean either way i kind of look like an asshole right? I trust Atlas not to go beyond text messages. But even then... is that too much. If the situation was reversed I know those text messages would be too much for him to take so why shouldn't it be too much for me. Why is there such a sexual double standard and should there be one?

I'm not angry, im not upset, not yet. Im just frustrated and I am not sure what to do about it.

Just a quick update

Last night Atlas and I went out to a rundown bar down the road from our house. We met some of the VFD members that is in Atlas' department and had a few drinks. WE left there witha few of them and went bowling. Yes bowling. I think I may have scored a 54 for the last one but that wasn't the point of bowling anyway. It was a good time, a good buzz and a night out. Atlas and I made it home, retired to bed and soon enough I was between his legs. Eyes closed, hands behind his head, moans escaping from his lips. It was delectable. I moved from his cock to his chest and when I did we noticed something...his cock fit perfectly between my cleavage. This is of course new and interesting for us and we explaored it further. It was so fucking hot! I remember finishing him off with my mouth but when I woke up this morning, the laundry was done, put away, the kitchen clean and the kids fed. Atlas was laying in bed next to me to tell me how much he loves me and how much fun he had last night.

I am very blessed to have everything that I do and everyday I am thankful that it is Atlas that I share my life with.

Friday Fill in. ( Im Trying it)

And...here we go!

1. I'd like ______to make a fresh fruit tart, watch a hockey game where my team wins, have a few drinks and sleep all night_______.

2. One of my most favorite romantic memories is ____Sitting between Atlas' legs and making out on the steps in front of a friend's condo on Mt. Washington in Pittsburgh watching the FOurth of July Fireworks. I think that is the day that I KNEW without a doubt that he was my one and only_____.

3. Last night, I had ___grilled tuna steak, fresh asparagus, baked potatoe, and blueberry win_______ for dinner.

4. Sorry for the _____lack of real blogging lately but I've been so damn busy________.

5. Can we ___just fuck___________ now?

6. One of my worst temptations is _waking up in the middle of the night to eat_______; ___Sometimes I substitute Atlas for food late at night because he is just as _____ hard to resist!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to _a hockey game____, tomorrow my plans include _daughter's soccer game, lunch out, chores around the house and maybe going out____ and Sunday, I want to __Watch hockey and relax__!


That wasn't too bad. Did I mention that Atlas and I made love last night and then again this morning before he went to work... mMmmmMMMMMmmmM He is delicious:)

HNT Insanity

Today was my cardio recovery day of my Insanity workout. During on of the stretches I grabbed the camera and hit auto. This was the result... Kind of inspired by a pic from Sage's site... not quite there, but working on it:) Happy HNT!

Once every couple months

I feel grumpy. Like I feel like there is something going on that I just can't put my finger on. Like Im not feeling completely... satisfied. I don't mean sexually either. Atlas and I have incredible sex, often. But when I say unsatisfied thats the first thing that comes to mind. But thats not it. Its unsatisfied emotionally or something else. I just need something more... from Atlas. It takes me breaking down for him to understand that. Its my fault that it gets to this point though, when he stands at the door for 10 minutes asking me if I am sure that I am okay that he is going to play cards... But you would think that he would know, if he has to stand there for 10 minutes convincing himself that I am okay so he can put it straight in his mind so he can go out and play cards. I wanted so badly to go out this weekend. Almost to the point where tears fill my eyes.

I feel so trapped in my house, in my life. The semester is coming to an end but I have to take summer classes which leaves me no break between the spring and summer classes. I go from a schedule I don't like to one I can't stand with no break. I was supposed to go out with a friend from high school yesterday and get drinks but she blew me off... for the second time. Now I don't think I am going to try and make plans with her again. It was just such a let down twice that I don't want to deal with it again. I miss my old friends from Washington. I miss the people I used to work with, I miss the people who understood what I was going through.

We went to a restraunt this morning after our daughters soccer game. When we walked in an older man was sitting at a table and waved to Atlas. Atlas introduced his children... Then we sat down waiting for a table. As we were sitting there the older men waved Atlas over to the table. He sat down and talked with the man and what I assume was his wife. They called our name and I walked our children back to the table sat down and shortly after Atlas came back. He didn't introduce me, he didn't even say, "This is my wife." Next we came home, did a bunch of yard work... I worked out, made dinner, and took a shower. Settled down to watch the hockey game. Atlas was out in the kitchen when he phone went off. " are you coming to cards babe?" from Ed.... Atlas has been going to this poker game for over a year. I've never been there and to be completely honest I have never met anyone who plays there. I've seen a few, a girl working at the grocery store, an older woman at Sam's club, and the gentleman from earlier today but... Im just frustrated.

I over think things when I get in this type of mood. I know he's loyal. I know he loves me. I know these things and I don't question them... I just let this happen on occasion.

Now tomarrow we are supposed to have company over in the evening. I had plans to get some stuff done outside during the day, but when atlas gets home late and and sleeps in I am left with all the responsibilities that are drowning me...

TMI

TMI Tuesday #231 - Sexual Healing
1. Name one thing that turns you on with unprecedented success.

Kissing my neck. Especailly from behind, I will instantly get weak in the knees.

2. Quick! Look around you and name 3 ordinary items that could be used sexually.

Candles, Lotion, and a hairbrush?

3. Do you consider sex good even if you don't orgasm?

Yes, I enjoy the leading up to just as much as the actual orgasm. Sometimes that part of it is such a let down anyway.

4. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, what sexual position or act would you like to experience from the other side?

I would definately be all about trying out doggie style and I am sure I would love to recieve some oral.

5.Describe a sexual fantasy in 10 words or less.

Making love on a boat under the stars.


Bonus (optional): Pretend you're a doctor and a patient has come in with an "ache". What is your course of "treatment"?

A good massage that leads to more.

Its the first time in a long time

That I feel alone. Atlas went out to play poker and I feel like I am alone. He was going to go whether I said so or not. So him asking me permission was just a formality. He had it planned on Tuesday when "ed" who is actually a girl who likes to call Atlas "babe" mentioned a poker game on Saturday. He didn't go out last night because he wanted to go out tonight and he made a point early in the day of mentioning some stuff that was going on in the poker room tonight. So... then what... our children being horrible... nappped late wide awake, iced tea high... and he leaves me. Alone with the kids OUR kids... I decided next weekend its my turn. I will ask him... tell him,that I am going out and he is welcome to join me if HE can find a sitter...

I had a crown and coke so maybe I am talking out my ass but I am here alone. Sitting here watching some stupid movies... while my kids fight eachother over play doh and crayons that I didn't want to open in the first place. Wow. Sometimes I let people walk all over me. What would happen if for one day I stopped doing anyhting, if mom/wife went on strike. I looked out in the kitchen, dinner still in the crockpot, salad still sitting on the counter, dishes in the sink, juice boxes on the table... What if i just walked into my room and went to sleep. Bet when I woke up tomarrow it would all still be there... and it would all sit there until I was so tired of walking by it that I crossed the strike line and worked with the scabs...

Atlas thanked me tonight for dealing with him during this month. Its been a rough month at work for him and I have tried to help. I have dealt with his bad moods adapted and overcame. Next week he is away monday night and then the week after he is away for three days... I don't know if i am looking forward to a break or if I am going to miss him.

Sometimes I just feel like I need a break. Like there are so few people that understand me or what I am going through. I'm a 25 year old mother of two, wife of 6 years, 14 years away from retirement in my career... I don't fit in with the normal 25 year old and sometimes it just sucks. I can't just be a college kid, I can't just be his wife, I cna't just be their mother I have to be everyone's everything.

I look at my children and I well up with tears. I adore them, love them. They are such incredible creatures. Loving, genuine, truthful, full of life, no worries... I just am so in love with my children... then I look at people my age, people in movies ( okay bad example its not real) but still... I want to see things and do things and I am so tied down. If I decide i want to do something I not only have to find someone to watch the kids, I have to find someone to come and take care of the dogs, and the house, I have to make sure its okay for me not to go to class, I have to talk to my boss, I have to benc over backwards and kiss someone's ass just to leave the area...

Im jsut a little overwhelmed... overworked, underpayed, underapprecaited... maybe I am a little resentful... Atlas is out... playing poker... where the girl who runs it calls him "babe" all the TIME! (okay, its wrong but I read his text messages). If you really think its wrong of me ask for more information... I have my reasons. He works until 8/9pm every night and i am locked down at home...

Wow... maybe its too much for now. I'm sure its the alcohol in me but its something I need to get off my chest, at least online so that i can tuck it all back in before Atlas gets home tonight. Or maybe I should bring it up to him... Tell him I need more help, I need more from him... I need a break. Mom's going on strike... at least after the kids go to bed and until they wake up...

weekend preview

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Yeah that's about it. Well, we have some common household chores that we are going to try and knock out, but other than that adventures are kinda out this weekend. Easter Egg hunt for the kiddos at the local VFD that Atlas is a memeber of. Atlas has some work to catch up on on Saturday but maybe sunday we can squeeze in some alone time.

Sorry I haven't been posting HNT's recently. I've been pretty busy with school and dr appt on thursday but I should be good to go for this coming week. I had another follow up yesterday the surgeon took out my last set of stitches and gave me the okay to shower again... yes I have not showered in 2 weeks so that may also add to the lack of HNT pictures. sponge bathing does not make me feel sexy nor does taking a bath. I do enjoy a bubble bath every now and again but I have a hard time getting over the idea of sittin in your own dirt and skin flakes and whatever other bodily fluids, functions that were on your skin when you got in that hot steamy bubbly water. So, I'm feeling good again, got the okay to start working out again on Monday, wants me to be careful still, no jumping, no pushups but its a start. The swelling is pretty much subsided and I think I am about the size I will end up being. Its nice. and I am excited and happy I did it.

Its been awhile...

Having small children in the house sometimes makes it difficult to find quiet alone time to attack atlas. So last night after I put the kids both to bed with my grandma ( who lives with us) I brushed my teeth pulled up my hair washed my face put my hair down, brushed it and climbed into bed next to atlas. I grabbed one of my books and started to study for the test that I had today. Studying did not last long though. Atlas was on the computer on his side of the bed and I saw my oppertunity. He was much involved in what he was doing on the computer and I was ready to attack. He had the laptop balanced on one knee which was bent upward and the other lay flat. This was the proper position for me to go behind/ beneath the laptop and gently flick the tip of his cock. He moaned and i heard his tapping on the keyboard become slower and a bit labored. I was able to take each of his balls into my mouth one at a time and suck on them. I moved back to his cock and took it in my mouth. THe laptop closed and was set on the bedside table. His full attention was on what i was doing. His eyes rolled back as I moved over his cock. I climbed on top of him and slid him inside me. This is the first time since surgery that I have been on top during sex. He took the oppertunity to cup my breasts and flick my nipples with his tounge. I have to admit my breasts are a bit more sensitive since the surgery. Snensitive in a good way. So as we are really getting into it, we both hear it. Tiny fit on the tile in the kitchen heading our direction. Crying toddler on his way into our bed. So we stop... right there, right in the middle, what else is there to do. I pull on some clothes and go get my son and put him in bed next to me. He is asleep within 3 minutes. Now what, we are both unsatisfied and now there is a small child in our bed. Atlas guides me to the couch that is in front of our bed. He bends me over the couch and enters me from behind. It doesn't take long before we both cum. Me slightly before him. Its easy for me to cum when Atlas fucks me from behind. Its a good angle I love to feel his hand on my shoulders or hips.

So, not that its been awhile since we had sex just been awhile since I wrote about it. I really dislike being interrupted but with kids what can you do? I know its only a matter of time before they are grown enough that they won't want to be in our room and I take that in stride when they sneak into our room in the middle of the night. It won't last forever and I'm sure its something I will miss... well sometimes.

The healthcare reform bill passed... great... so now what... I am interested to see how this effects me and my family. I am upset about it and I will make sure to cast my votes in movemeber against the congressmen and women in my case that voted yes. THe congressmen(women) in the area voted 2 yes and 2 no. So I know who I am voting for then. I am making Chicken and Dumplings for dinner and Atlas and I are starting our INsanity workout tonight. THere is a hockey game on tonight!!! YAY! I love hockey.

I went to Lowes today in between my classes. I had a few things I wanted to pick up. If I was single Lowes is definatley the place to go to pick up men in the middle of the day.. Hell I probbaly could of picked up a couple of them today if I wanted. Some older gentlemen asked me if I needed any help ( he didn't work there). i said, "No thanks, I think I got it under control" he replied " I like a woman who has everything under control" LOL Thanks. I bought some landscaping rocks, some hinges, and latches, some spackling, and some more seeds. Our spring projects are underway. We did get the goats fence up on Saturday but it is not in working order quite yet, 3 days in the sun charging before we can use it. So I will let you know how it goes.

Don't talk politics or religon

In a bar... I used to bartend prior to my current career. But this isn't a bar. I usually do not get too involved in politics or politians but this healthcare reform blows my mind. I see bad things on the horizon and I am young enough to see bad things in the future for this. My current career gives me great insurance, full coverage for everything, perscriptions, hopitalizations, well appointments, whatever. So I have yet to understand life without insurance. I'm sure its horrible. I'm sorry that some people can not afford to go to the doctors but I do not think that universal healthcare is the right direction to take. Its going to cause a huge(er) national deficet. Its going to cause issues for my children. I just wanted to vent a little. I know there is nothing that I can do now, the vote is about to happen, and its too late. What a scam.

Tuesday evening blahs

I went to school on Monday and today. I came home sorer yesterday than I did today. I came home monday, took my antibiotics, a pain pill, took the wraps off and just sat naked on the couch. My daughter came in and noticed I still have not gotten off all the marker from the sides of my breasts and told me that I shouldn't draw on myself that papa would be angry. It made me laugh and made my day. What a precious little creature my daughter is. Today I came home, loaded the dishwasher, the laundry, and planted some herbs, spices, and flowers. The weather is finally breaking and it won't be long befor I can get the flowers and veggies in the ground. We have a lot of projects for this spring and summer. We need to build out goats a new home as the snow this winter has caved in part of the roof in our small barn. We also want to fence them to 3 acres because I am tired of them pooping on my sidewalk. Any ideas about the best way to fence in goats? They aren't meat or diary goats, they are really just pets. I also want to get chickens because I love fresh eggs but I do not want chicks, I just want to start with something that is laying eggs not something else I need to raise. We did chickens once before, we ended up with about 80 of them in the freezer which was delish. We also did turkey which didn't work out as well since a cyote got in the coop and killed our tom. We have to get the garden back up. I have a hottub I need to get rid of, a 3800sqft deck that needs pressure washed and stained and did i mention I live in a log home that needs washed, sealed and stained this spring... Yep... big plans big plans... I also am in the hunt for a new rifle.

I am feeling good, boobs are looking great, I cleaned out my bra drawer today, and thursday I should be able to shower, and buy new bras. YAY!!!! I'm excited to get some brandy new lingerie and bathing suits!!! Atlas and I are also going to start a new workout program. Have you seen the late night Insanity infomercial?? yeah that one. Got it from a friend of a friend for cheaper than they sell if for online. We are going to start it monday, there is some stuff I wont be able to do right away while I am recovering but I can do the abs, and pylometric stuff, I just need to be careful with the jumping bouncing and arm work outs for a couple more weeks.

Day 3 Post Op

I'm feeling really good today. I did take 2 small naps during the day and spent more time than usual on the couch but feeling pretty good. I took off the bandages and let the girls out for a while today too. Atlas asked our daughter if she noticed anything differnt about mama and she said " she has marker on her, and you told us not to play with markers." So cute and so strange that she didn't mention the increase in my bust. Our son just wanted to touch them and asked if he could nurse again. Also cute, but strange that seeing large breasts on me makes him want to nurse. I also got the guts to measure myself while Atlas ran to the store. I was worried it was going to come out to a 36DDD. Not that there is anything wrong with that but it would look slightly silly on me. I am a 36 Full C small D. I am super excited because that it the exact size I was going for. I even have bras from before that should still fit me. I did manage to get some homework done today and plan on knocking out more Saturday and Sunday. I did plan on spending the majority of spring break doing homework but I was not feeling like doing homework this week. Go figure. But I'm doing well, feeling good, and taking it easy.

Updates

Today I am feeling a lot better than I was yesterday. Took some pain meds after dinner but that was also after doing a load of laundty and making spaghetti, picking up my son and watching the hockey game. Other than being sore I really am feeling wuite well. I got to see the new girls for the first time today.
I was kind of horrified at first, being wrapped tightly in an ace bandage for 2 days does not do a body good, however after only a few minutes my bust was settling where it should. They looked like mountains at first looking down then I looked in the mirror. It was almost the exact size they were while I was breastfeeding. A little bigger but I am swollen. I am not black and blue, or bruised. Since I left the Dr. I still have one wrap lightly around my chest but man, they look. My right breast is a bit firmer and feels a bit tighter. I guess that is because naturallt that breast was always smaller so to compensate the implant was larger and that breast never really did get anywhere near the same size as the other. So far I am really really impressed adn I believe that it will only get better. I still feel a bit swollen, between the IV fluids and how much water I drank I think I have some serious fluid to lose but nothing I am worried about right now. I just want to heal and get back to normal new boobies and all. I will get some pictures soon!!!

I made it.

So I am home and in bed, ate dinner, beenup to the bathroom and I am feeling rather okay. My chest isn't really sore, but my heels, my left arm and the beck of my head are... I guess they aren't real good with surgical positioning. Everything went rather well, I was there at 615, filled out some papers, talked with the doc, he marked my chest, then talked with anesthesia and at around 815 I walked to the surgical suite. I got on the table they started an IV and I really don't remember anything after that. I remember waking up in recovery, I was dressed and sitting in a wheel chair, no idea how I got there or dressed, shoes and all. I zoned the entire way home, couldn't walk straight coming in the door so Atlas basically carried me. When I got in the door I didn't make it past the kitchen sink before I threw up. Well, at least it was in the sink and it was only water... I hadn't eaten since yesterday at dinner. I got to bed, and passed out, in and out of it. Atlas brought me dinner, and refilled my water twice, he helped me to the bathroom and basically watched over me. I just looked at my implants cards to see what the fill volume was and he went slightly larger than we had first discussed which I am okay with.
I think the complaint that I heard the most when doing research was " I should have gone bigger". I am wrapped with an ace bandage and other bandages so I will not get to see my new girls until Thursday when I go in for my follow up. Im super excited and feeling pretty good minus the sorness from the poor positioning.

Surgery updated

I just got a call from my Surgeon and he asked me if I would be able to come in at 615am instead of 2pm. He said it would work out better for everyone. I jumped at that chance because although I am sure I would be able to go without eating from midnight tonight till after surgery I am a fat kid at heart I am really love to eat. Soooo... getting closer, got the house spic and span and I am on my way drop off the kiddos. Thanks for the good wishes!

Busy week last week Busty week this week

So tomarrow is the big day. Literally the big day. Last week was pretty full and that is my excuse for not being on here a lot. I had papers to write, midterms to study for as well as an arsenal of things to complete around the house. We usually have a rather large garden and my daughter and I spent a day starting our seeds. After the puppy fanasco we spend a day scrubbing walls in a basement room that was used as a kennel, that job still continues as we will be patching holes today and hopefully Atlas will pain the room while he is off this week.

Atlast went to work today but it is his last day for the week. I drop the kids off at my mom's tonight and I don't have surgery until 2pm tomarrow afternoon. By then I will have the house completely in order. I have two big trays of lasanga, bought new pillows, made ice packs. I will finish up the laundry and the household chores this evening before dropping off the kids and then I plan on spending the night making love, and enjoying a night alone before I am sore tomarrow. I'm quite excited and I'm not making any secret about it. I have talked to most of my family... except my dad about it and everyone seems pretty supportive, and a couple have even seeemed a bit jealous.

The weekend

Friday night was a blast. Atlas came home from work early, we cooked steaks on the grill (in the snow again), baked potatoes, asparagus, homemade rolls and a bottle of blackberry wine. Shortly after dinner we had the children showered and into bed with grandma. Sweet, we popped in Paranomal Activity and crawled into bed. It wasn't a great movie, but it wasn't bad. It was a little too Blair Witch Project for me but what the heck. Mid movie Atlas dove under the covers and attacked me. In my mildly inebraiated state I came rather quickly. Atlas has learned that unless he wants to hold me down, trying to immediately progress past my first orgasm is pretty useless because I squirm and buck and I'm just overly too sensitive to continue to be licked adn flicked and whatever else he is doing. So I decided while I was recovering that I would return the favor. I rolled him onto his back and began to suck his cock. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes. He reached over and stuck two fingers inside of me and then he wrapped his hand around his cock. When I took his fingers in my mouth he had had enough and he grabbed my hips and placed me on top of him. I slid him deep inside me and rode him reverse cowgirl until again Atlas rolled me onto my back and climbed on top of me. He fucked me hard and for longer than I expected. I thought that he was nearing the end when he rolled me onto my back but I was pleasantly surrpised. The angle that he was entering me was extremely pleasurable and I came shortly before he did. He rolled to my side and we happened to catch the end of the movie. I fell asleep shortly after that. When i woke up Atlas was already in the process of attacking me. I was sound asleep when he pulled my shorts down to my knees and entered me from behind. I could hear our children scamper across the floor in the kitchen but it felt so good to have him again that I couldn't keep my mouth closed. Atlas reached around and cupped his hand over my mouth which just made it hotter. One hand over my mouth, one working on my clit... Atlas is so good at multitasking... heheh. After all of that I cleaned myslef up and made breakfast, bacon eggs, and toast. Atlas went outside to plow the driveway... again... The rest of the day was spent in doing not much of anything.
Watched the Curious Case of Benajamin Button, *waste of 3 hours* made venison roast in homemade saurkraut and mashed potatoes for dinner and I went to sleep rather early. Atlas went over to the Firehall to play cards for a bit. He was home before I got up to go to the bathroom at 2 and he had money in his pocket so it was a good evening.

Last night however was one of the few times that I get frustrated with Atlas. Maybe he portrays what I say the wrong way, maybe I portray what he says the wrong way, either way it just gets frustrating sometimes. I was quite horny last night. I wanted Atlas like you wouldn't believe. I told him that I was just going to take it, he just had to lay there, that he didn't even have to enjoy it. He denied me. Asked me not to, said he was tired, he had to be up early, it was late, blah blah blah blah, every excuse possible. I said "I'll be quick" His reply was "You aren't ever really quick"... true statement, it does take me a while to get there sometimes but lets face it, at least I get there. my reply, "its 90 percent mental. sometimes I just need to concentrate on it" That too is true, I can be really really enjoying sex and I will hear a weird noise, the kids, the dogs, and i concerntrate on something else for a minute and i've lost it. "So you are thinking about other things when we are having sex?" Atlas asked... What is my reply to that? Yes Atlas, sometimes after a long day of cleaning and cooking adn taking care of children, adn going to school, or whatever else I have to do that particular day I am still thinking about something else when we are having sex. When I have a big exam or a million and a half things to do the next day I took am not concentrating on exactly what is going on.... So at that the horniness that I had was extinguished. I got out of bed, put on pajamas and went and got a glass of tea, took a benadryl, and laid down in bed... When I woke up this morning Atlas was already getting ready to walk out the door, "Sorry I didn't hump you lst night." "No problem, I took care of it on my own." Which I didn't I simply went to sleep. " I figured as much." "Someone had to." We both laughed, kissed and he went off to work.

HNT, The Rice Test

Today is my second consult with the surgeon. I was told by a friend to try "the rice test" to see if the size and everything is what I wanted. The idea of the test is so much rice is equal to so many cc's. So you use a knee high fill it with the desired amount of rice and test it in your bra. The surgeon said 350-400cc's is what he would suggest for me so i tried it and it looked okay. I mean it is rice and it was shoved in my bra like a teenager stuff tissues down there but it looked good and I am getting more excited everyday. Its snowing... AGAIN. Supposed to get another 6+ inches. When will it ever end??? Blah, I say that now but when spring comes there are more chores to do and more work needs done... but it would be outside work... sigh... I can't wait.

Happy HNT!!!

TMI Tuesday

Well I am not a big fan of the questions, my answers were kinda unorigonal and lame and I didn't feel like typing about it. How is everyone out here in blogland? I am doing well, getting back into the swing of classes although this classload seems to be a lot mildly than last semesters. This is my most unfavorite time of the year. The snow, is begining to melt (which i love) but now is muddy, and dirty. The whitness is tinged with road crud and the reminst of salt, sand, and ash that was spread on the roads. The roads are a mess, pothold big enough to lose one of my Silverado tires in, and half the road scraped up and pushed to the side of the road by the plows.

I am looking forward to spring. I got out all of my seeds, sat down and planned out our garden. I will probably plant them later on this week. I can't wait to get down in the garden in the dirt, walk between the rows of vegtables that are all home grown. I love putting on my "shit kicker" boots and a bikini top and working in the yard. I can't wait to open up the pool and let the cool water rinse over my sunburned back. I look forward to sneaking out of the house stripping all of my clothes off and swimming at night. To tan topless on the deck, and to enjoy all that summer has to offer. Right now I peer out the window, and all I see are shades of grays. The skins not blue, the sun doesn't shine, the trees have no leaves and the snow isn't even white anymore. Please spring show up soon!

Im not sure if any of that is really TMI but its what I am feeling right now. The winter just seems to drag on.

HNT, Thinking warm and sunny thoughts

So... today was my appointment with the surgeon and he actually made it. So Atlas and I were pleasantly surprised. He seems to be really good, over 13,000 breast augmentations. He listened to what I wanted and he spent a good hour and a half one on one with us. He did an exam and measurements and we discussed everything. We set up a March 9th at 2pm. He is going to do the incison under the breast, and use a mentor saline implant. The surgery takes place in the surgical suite in his office. He has a full staff and preforms surgery there 4 days a week. I am starting to get super excited. We have another consult next week that talks about all of the risks and everything that goes with it. It also is to discuss everything leading up to the surgery I guess there is special soap that he wants me to use for like 2 weeks and he said he has a very strict procedure. I am really really glad Atlas was able to go with me. It is really awesome that he is so supportive through this. He told the Dr that this is not his idea that he loves me just how I am and that this is something that I want for me. The surgeon said that my breasts are very normal and that I simply lost fullness due to having children. Well... duh! I breastfed for 4 years and was a D now that I have stopped and the milk went away I am about a small B. He said that the implants will make me a full C small D. He specailizes in natural looking bresats and said that if I want something larger he is not the right surgeon for us. So... next week is another consult and the surgery needs to be paid in full at that time. We have the money in the bank so... that is not a problem. Wow. I can't believe this is really happening. I'm really starting to get excited. I think Atlas is starting to get excited over it too. He's not a boob man he is all about a nice ass but I think he will really apprecaite a nice rack :) I know I do.

Happy HNT!!! (Picture taken last may)

I need some advice.

So tomarrow is my consult with the surgeon. I am sure that this is what I want to do. The hardest thing for me to deal with is the fact that I am going to a decent amount of money on it. I can think of one hungred things better to spend the money on but really... when is the next time I am going to have the time, money, and support to do this? So I am going to talk to the Doctor tomarrow and see what he thinks would be best. I want to be a full C small D. That's what I was when I was breastfeeding so I know I have the "room" for it, I am 5'7 so I know I have the frame to carry that without looking funny or tipping over. I will definately keep everyone updated after my appointment and let you know what is going on. I am very excited. Atlas is going to take off work to go with me, he said that it is important for him to be there for me, to know that he is supportive. LOL... either that or he just doens't want me topless around another man without him there. Haha, either way I am glad he is going to go.

In other news I think I need some advice. There are some people that are coming back to town and have mentioned they wanted to get together with Atlas (via facebook). When I say people I mean girls. Girls he went to high school with. I am 7 years younger than Atlas so just to put things in perspective when he was going to prom I was 5th grade. When he was learning to drive I was learning to multiply. LOL. Anyway, They invited him out to eat one night and to go bowling the next. They said he can birng me but their spouses are staying home with their kids. *Yes they are all married* Okay, am I sounding childish?
I just do not know how comfortable I am going to be around these girls. Oh did I mention that, one girl is the first girls he ever made out with, and one girl is the girl he lost his virginity to, and one girl gave him and his best friend head in the same day at her house, one girl gave him unwantedness when she cheated on his friend with him. I must have forgotten to share that. So, it doesn't sound like the most respectable group of women, definatly not the kind of girl I was in high school. Definatly not the kind of people I hung out with then or now. Granted people change and they are grown women with husbands and children and lives but still... Does anyone else think it is going to be mildly uncomforatble while they are all laughing and joking around talking about things that happened when I was too young to even know what they are talking about? Or is that the point, that was then and he is with me now???
I tried to explain it to Atlas, I said " would you want to hang out with the guy I lst my virginity to, and the first guy I made out with in the same room at the same time" he said " it wouldn't bother me." He doesn't understand and maybe I am overreacting, overthinking it. I agreed to go with him, more to satisfy him than to actually meet these people. He sais that if I didn't go he wasn't going at all. He swears we will have fun but I don't see this ending well. I'm not worried about him wanting them or getting feelings for them or even lusting... Its not like that, he knows what he has and I know he doesn't want anything more so what is it in me that is telling me this isn't going to be fun.

Any advice would help. I told him I would go but still... I'm weary.

Its easier to keep up than catch up

So I decided I was not trecking out into the 6+ inches of fresh snow to drive an hour each way, probably more since the roads are bad, to sit in a class that I don't enjoy and don't need to be in. Its been a while since I made an actual post but its been difficult with all the snow and kids and atlas at home non stop. Lets see, two fridays ago we got slammed with snow. 24 inches in one night. So by monday nothing was really cleaned up so school was canceled for the little one. I still managed to make it to my fill day of classes, then tuesday word was another storm was coming, and it did , dropping another 6-8 inches of snow. Yikes. No school for me or the kids for the rest of the week. Atlas didn't make it to work on Wendesday. Thursday was to be my consult with the surgeon but he was unable to make it so I also didn't make it. It was rescheduled for this thursday but I did manage to set a surgery date with the secretary in case I decide i like this guy and want him to do the surgery. Its March 9th and 2pm. Sooo I will keep everyone updated. Friday Atlas had a Dr appointment and everything went really well. We spent much of the day out and about.
As we were driving home from the Dr Appointment the Oscar Meyer Weiner Mobile drove by us!!!! It was so funny, I pulled out my phone and snapped a quick picture. The license plate said "Bologna". Yes. It was the high light of my day. Saturday was Atlas' birthday and the day before Valentine's day. We didn't make any plans other than finding a babysitter so we spent some of the night wandering around looking for a place to eat. We decided on a Mexican restraunt, and started with margaritas and crown and coke. After dinner we went to a local bar and had a few drinks, mind you its still snowing, there was no one there but us so we left and went to another bar, more people, Atlas played a few games of pool and then we went to a hotel for the night.
Both of us a bit buzzed we fell into the bed almost too tired to do anything. I couldnt let that happen though, it was afterall Atlas' birthday, or valentine's day or somewhere in between. So I climbed between his legs and gave him, I'd have to say the best head I have ever given anyone in my life. Well, that's my opinion at least, Atlas was quite satisfied and we both passed out soon after that. I was awaken the next morning to Atlas' hand between my legs. I climbed on top of him and began to ride him. There was a lot of position changes, it was a lot of fun.
Atlas and I came together, I was laying on my stomache, Atlas had his hand firmly on my upper back holding me down. It is by far my favorite position. We cleaned up, got dressed and was on our way home by 9am. We stopped at the grocery store, bought 2 dozen eggs, bacon, bread, milk, coffee and oj. We went home and made an awesome breakfast together.
Later that night we watched Couples Retreat, funny, actually i laughed to the point of tears on two occasions but not as funny throughout the movie. We cuddled up in bed and just held eachother that night. Happy Valentine's Day!

That brings me to today, playing hooky, well kind of. Its not worth me wrecking my truck, that is paid off, for the sake of sitting in a class I don't like or have a test in. I do have a midterm tomarrow so I will have to study in alittle bit but I did promise the kids I'd make cookies today. Hopefully I will be able to write again soon.

TMI Tuesday

TMI Tuesday #227 - Fat Tuesday Edition


The Valentine's Day Edition.


Have you had sex with another person in 2010? Have you passed on an opportunity to sex with another person in 2010?

Sex with another person? Like not by myself or not with Atlas? I did not have sex with anyone other than Atlas in 2010, 2009, 2008, 2007,2006,2005, and 2004... wow... Have I passed on the opportunity to have sex with anyone else? Not that anyone was throwing them selves at me but I am a girl, a decent looking girl, and Im sure if I was looking for it, it wouldn't be hard to find... *but I'm not looking*

What is the funniest thing you have ever said or done during sex? (Orgasmic facial expressions do not count.)

I'm not sure what the funniest thing I have ever said or done during sex is. I know Atlas and I laugh during sex on a regular basis. I think it is important to enjoy each other and be comfortble even if you do do something funny.

What is the first thing you notice about a member of the opposite sex?

I am a big fan of big guys. I like a man that I can feel safe and protected around. So I guess *size* is the first thing I notice. I notice eyes a lot. I am a big hockey fan and I am always picking out someone's eyes as they are playing.

What is the best pick-up line you have ever heard? Every used? Ever been used on you?

I was a bartender for a while and I heard a lot of them. Cheesy cheesy lines. " Are your pants mirrored? -- What are you talking about--" Becuase I can see myself in them". I have never had to use a pick up line. I am more of a smile and glance at you kinda girl. I can do some serious flirting with my eyes.

Where is the most unique you have ever had sex?

Hmmm... Like I have mentioned previously on this blog I am alittle lame when it comes to places to have sex. Atlas and I had sex in our car, in the middle of our driveway, in the middle of the day once before we got home to relieve the babysitter from her duties. We have had sex in the pool on many occassions, we attempt the shower but our height differences usually makes it uncomfortable, in the bathroom at a hotel while our friends and my mother were in the other room, but unique... Sorry, I'm kinda lame.
Bonus (as in optional): Do you pee in the shower? If so, has any SO known that you pee in the shower? Has any SO peed in the shower?

Hahahah, that's so funny. I do not pee in the shower as I usually shower with both of my children and the height differences make it inappropriate to pee in the shower. Atlas does pee in the shower and he makes a point of peeing on my feet if i am in there. I think he likes that i squeal and punch him when he does it. Gross I know but if its far from the worst thing I will ever have on my feet.

Happy Birthday Atlas.

It is Atlas' Birthday so I will make this short and sweet as I believe we have a day of events planned. He is the man that makes me giggle like a little girl and laugh until tears roll down my cheeks. He gives me butterflies when he looks at me from across the room. I can read his eyes and know what he wants. He makes my toes curl, my legs shake and my heart beat faster. He has seen me at my worst, and at my very best. He has picked me up from failure and celebrated my successes with. We have been together through separations (due to work), where i waited by the mailbox for a letter or checked my email 1093857474929342994 times a day just hoping I would see his name. He is my everything, my husband, the father of our children, my lover, and my best friend. Here's to many many many more birthdays together! I love you!

HNT, Snowed In

Sorry for the lack of self picture but we have been snowed in since last Friday. We have about 32 inches of snow. Kids have not had school all week and I have not had school since Tuesday. Today is my consultant with the surgeon but he is snowed in at his house. The office keeps calling me to update me on his status so we will see if I get to meet him today or not. Atlas has a Dr. appt tomarrow and I will be accompanying him since they are going to loop him up some. Will keep everyone updated. Stay warm! Happy HNT

TMI Tuesday 5

TMI Tuesday #226 - Deadly Sins Edition (repeat)


1. LUST: Besides your current Significant Other who do you lust for or have you lusted for?

I lust for my spouse A LOT! Like I wish I could have him like 2 three times a day. hehehe. I truthfully don't lust after anyone else. On occassion I really find Johnny Depp (only as Jack Sparrow) to be super delicious. In the past I had a thing for pro wrestlers, but it wasn't a lust thing it was more of a "I want to make out with them and hang out with them, not fuck them kinda thing.

2. GLUTTONY: What food brings out your inner glutton?

Hmmm.. I try really hard to eat well. I love lady locks and just in general good food. I am a big fan of steak and fried foods but I try to eat sparingly what I can.

3. GREED: What are you greedy for?

Time. I always need more time, and more time alone especailly.

4. SLOTH: What is your plan for an ideal day of sloth?

Sleep in, breakfast in bed, nap, do homework, sleep, eat, sleep...

5. WRATH: Describe a time that you let out a can of whoop ass on someone.

I'm not one for physical battles but I have been in a few scuffles in my time. All of them over stupid boys that I was dating... I should of figured then that if someone wanted to fight for them I should of just gave them to them without a fight. Haha, I am pretty vicious with my words when I want to be. I made a grown woman cry in a feminist theory class last year. ( I do not belong in a class like that) We were discussing vegetarian feminism or something like that and someone mentioned men as hunters and women as gatherers. I simply put "I hunt". the girl replied "why do you hunt." "Because we eat it," "You could go to the store and get food there to eat, you don't need to go shoot inocent animals." Brush off how stupid that comment is because it gets much better, I didn't talk about slaughter houses and how gruesome they are. " Population control." " So you hunt to control the population of deer?" "Yes. Haven't you ever hit a deer with your car? There are too many of them" ( I live in PA and it is 3rd in the country for most deer/vehicle accidents). "No and I don't know anyone who has" Now she was just getting stupid. " Has anyone in here hit a deer with there car?" I as well as half the class raises their hand. "Fine, population control like the chinese aborting female fetus' becuase of overpopulation." At this point I just stopped looked at the professor as if asking her if she wanted to stop me. She did nothing " Yes, just like that. So the next time a chinese woman runs out in front of my car while I am driving down a back road I will start hunting them too, if that will make you feel better. " THe girl got teary eyed and stood up to walk out of the room, that's when the professor stepped in.

6. ENVY: Who or what do you envy? Why?

On occassion I envy couples iwth no children for the simple fact that they can do what they want, whenever they want. But then I see my kids and I know that perhaps they want exactly what I have.

7. PRIDE: Have you ever had to swallow your pride? What are you proud of?

hmmm... In my profession I had to go through a time when all I did was swallow my pride. Every part of who I was or what I was proud of before was ruined. But from that experiance I learned, I grew and I became a stronger, prouder, and better person.

HNT 4, a pair of jeans that fit just right

Atlas left this morning and won't be back until tommarow afternoon. We are expecting A LOT of snow tomarow and into Saturday. Sounds like a good time to get snowed in. I slept so amazing last night. Then this morning I was awoken the best way that I can think of. I heard Atlas lock our bedroom door as he came back to bed after his shower. He started kissing my neck from behind and pulled down my shorts. He slid his naked body against mine. "I want you." he whispered in my ear. "I'm all yours." I said sleepily.

Happy HNT!!!!

Wendesday is such a long day for me. I try to prepare myself mentally for the 13 hours of school that I have to sit through but I have no one to blame but myself for the scheduling. However I would rather go 1 day a week for that many hours than 5 days a week for 2 hours, considering I drive 45 minutes to and from school.

Everything on the homefront has been pretty normal, pretty stable. Atlas has to go away for work on Thursday and Friday. Spouses were invited and encouraged to come however... I was unable to find a babysitter and when I did find a sitter for both days I was unable to find someone to come and let our dogs out/ stay at our house with the puppies. What a scam huh? Atlas gets to go to a ski resort for 2 days, dinner, drinks, hotel room and I get to stay home with the kiddies and dogs. I know I know don't bitch its for work... but come on! Its like a mini vacation, dinner and drinks and 4 hours of meetings in 2 days... Scammers.

Anyway, I started that last night and will finsih it now (WED.). I left school early today because I wasn't feeling well. Last night Atlas had a minor could of been major issue with one of his employees, which he had to attend to. So he didn't get home till after 1am. I didn't go to sleep until around 11 and when he got home I woke up to talk to him.

We made love last night. Like passionate, intimate, missonary position, quiet middle of the night sex. It was perfect. Atlas came home in a sour emotional mood and I comforted him, I gave him the best advice that I could, and I listened to him talk through his thoughts. Then we were cuddling and I looked at him and said " Why don't you get under the covers and make out with me." He looked at me, " why don't you get under my cover and make out with me." I slid my shorts off and climbed out from my covers and under his. We faced eachother and he took my face in his hands and we kissed. He looked in my eyes and he told me how much he loved me. I kissed him, and he rolled me on my back and climbed between my legs. He kissed my neck and pulled my t-shirt up exposed my breasts. He sucked on each of them and moved back to my face. I kissed his neck and his shoulder as he moved over top of me. In the end we came together in and laid together for a few minutes before exhaustion got the best of us. I was awoken around 4 when our youngest came scampering in. He crawled in bed with me and I was unable to go back to sleep before the alarm went off at 5am for me to get ready for school.

I only stayed at school long enough to get through my two tougher classes and then I went home to take a nap which never happened. I drank a Dr. Pepper on the way home and had enough energy to get the laundry done, the dishwasher loaded, the upstairs vaccuumed and red up enough to relax. After I finish this blog I am going to start working on my homework as I have enough of it to keep me busy for a long while. I also have to try and think of something interesting for HNT tomarrow. Hmmm... any suggestions?

TMI Tuesday 4

TMI Tuesday #225 - Six Degrees Edition


1. What famous people share your birthday? Any the same year as well as day?

I googled this to find someone. And truthfully it was no one that I knew. My birthday is November 16th. I figured there would be a lot more considering its like 9 months after Valentine's day.

2. Have you ever shared an address (before, during or after) with anyone famous?

That is definatly no. I have lived in some pretty lame places.

3. Who else has your name? (Google yourself and see who else shows up)

There is no one that has the same name as me. But there is a model (smoking hot BTW) who has the same first name as myself.


4. Test the Six Degrees theory. Do you know someone who might know someone who might know someone who might know someone who might know someone who knows President Obama? How about, say Dolly Parton?

President Obama... definately. I have friends that work at the white house who I'm sure knows someone who knows someone. Dolly Parton... hmmmm... I know a guy who is in a band who just got signed to a country deal with a record company who I am sure someone there knows someone who knows someone who knows... yeah.

5. Try the sexual version. Have you had sex with someone who might have . . . anyone famous? (e.g. I slept with a woman who had slept with a Hollywood stuntman, who might have....)

Well... I once stayed in the same hotel as some famous people and we hung out in their room but I did not sleep with them and neither did any of my friends... its probably why they invited us out to party again when they came back to town.

Hmmm... This weeks TMI was not really TMI... I did make out with someone who was/is famous once. Still if he is on TV or someone mentions him while I am around Atlas shoots me a funny look. I have pictures to prove too so... Its not just some story I made up.

Weekend review

I am sure that i could find something more productive to do with this time. My oldest at preschool, my youngest running around with a strawberry rice crispie treat, and in her room, dogs all behaving. I should be doing some homework, or laundry, or dishes or vaccuum this mornings mess but I can't. I just don't feel like it.

This weekend was not productive and really nothing spectacular. It was like a step backward in the progress that Atlas and I have been making. Friday night we had planned a date night but when the sitter fell through we found ourselves sitting on the couch in our bedroom. 8 o'clock and the kids are all asleep in grams bed, Atlas and I are alone. I didn't really feel like just sitting at home and Atlas suggested we just run up the street to a small bar and have a few drinks. I let gram know and we snuck away. The main goal of the night was to get out and enjoy ourselves but before we even got our sandwiches Atlas says, "My dad and everyone are going on a quad trip the week after Easter." "Yea," I said already feeling the tears well up in my eyes just thinking about it. " Yea, that means I can go too or yeah we'll talk about it later." "Yeah we will talk about it later." I didn't want to talk about it, not there, not then, I wanted to have a good time, I wanted to be away from the house and the kids and enjoy eachother but he pushed on. " I figured we could go on vacation the week before anywhere you want and then come back for easter and then I could go with my dad". He always throws in with his dad because I am a sucker for family bonding. "What about the kids." "What about them? We will take them with us." " What kind of vacation is that? If I go on vacation I don't want to chase around a 2 year old or listen to my 4 year old who never stops talking." " I thought it sounded like a good deal, in March you get your boobs done and in April I can go on this trip." Wow, he is already using it against me and I haven't even seen a doctor I have just simply talked about it. The first thing that I have ever wanted to do for myself and he is alreayd using it against me. " I don't wnat to talk about it here." I could feel my face getting red, I was angry, embarressed, and hurt. " When is it my turn, Atlas? Since we have had children I haven't had a break, not a weekend away without at least one of them attatched to my hip." " Well, if I had tits then it would be an issue but I don't." He is referring to the fact that I breastfed our children for four years straight! My daughter didn't give it up until my son was born and my son just stopped in October which is when my daughter turned 4. Since we have had children Atlas has taken multiple bow fishing trips, multiple fishing trips, quad riding trips, as well as being separated on a regular basis for months at a time do to our profession. Everytime I am left, home alone, with our children. " I don't want to talk about it now" and with that it was dropped. I found myself drunk enough by the end of the night to stumble home adn strip my clothes off on the way to our bed. Right as we were starting to get comfortable our youngest comes running into the room, he climbs in bed between us and falls quickly back asleep. Well... We moved down to the couch and finished our business there. After I cleaned myself up I went to lay in bed. Atlas walked to the side of our bed, " Do you care if I go play for alittle while" I looked up, more drunk than asleep... " You didn't have to take me out, get me drunk and screw me just so you could go play tonight. You know I don't care." He kissed my forehead as I passed out. I awoke at 5am to Atlas crawling into bed. He smelled of cigars and poker room. I rolled over our kids would be up within an hour or so and someone has to be a parent.

Saturday came and went with nothing spectular. We picked up Atlas' quad from the shop where it has sat since his last quad trip that blew up the engine. We stopped at his parents "farm" and hung out with his father and uncle. It was a nice day, it was really cold out and the only thing keeping us warm was a woodburner by the time we got home the children were both whooped and quickly changed into pajamas and went to sleep. Atlas dyed my hair, I showered and we watched a movie. When the movie was over I rolled over and he rubbed my back. I fell asleep. I felt Atlas lean over the bed. " Can I go play?" I just aved my hand at him and hardly remember him asking. I woke at 430 when he shut our bedroom door. Sunday is traditionally his day to wake uo with the kids but I knew it wasn't going to happen. I woke up with the kids and made a great breakfast. Some of our friends came over to watch hockey and the probowl. It was a nice day, Atlas fell asleep on the floor with our company still here around 8. They took that as their cue to leave. I woke Atlas up and we went to bed.

Having your Cake...

Every so often I look around my house and my life with complete satisfaction. I look at my Atlas and know that he is a loving and good husband. Despite his faults he tries and he adores me and he will always take care of me and our family (and he is really good in the sack). I adore our children, healthy, bright, beautiful children. I know everyone thinks their children are the most beautiful and brightest but I know that I am blessed to have them in my life. We own a house that is larger than we need, we have more food than we could eat and we are both employed.

I talk to a lot of people who are so unhappy in their lives. I just don't understand being married to someone who you can not stand. I just don't understand how those people get through their days. I try to pick something to look forward to everyday, dinner with the family, wine with Atlas, cuddling on the couch watching hockey, something no matter how small. I know things aren't perfect and I am okay with that. Atlas and I's relationship is not always perfect but we work through things and we try to communicate everything to each other. I am so in love, with my husband, and with my children.

I often think to myself, that people are not this happy, things just don't work this well. As Atlas and I are cuddling with our 2 rugrats in the middle on Sunday mornings or while we are driving down the road, laughing and singing in the car I wonder why I am so lucky and why others are so miserable. It is as though I am waiting for that reason that proves we are not happy as I thought, that something is wrong and I just don't know about it.

Is it really possible to be this happy, this satisfied or this content?

Do I ask permisson or beg forgiveness?

I have taken the next step in the breast augmentation ladder. I have researched surgeons and found 3 in my area that I liked. I did a lot of further research on each of them and narrowed it down to 2. One is a male, 30 years experaince, life time warranty on implants, surgeries and repairs, never had a malpractice suit, board certified. The other a female, she is also board certified practing 10 years, no malpractice, she is an hour and a half away, and a friend of mine and her mother both had their surgeries by this woman. I talked to Atlas and he said that he likes the first one better. So I made an appointment and I have a consultation with him on Feb 11. I am super excited, super nervous. I don't know I just have so many thoughts going on right now. Atlas seems like he is more concerned with how we are going to pay for it than anything else. His main question was "How much?" I am sort of offended by that because whenever he wants something he just goes and gets it, a 9000 dollar quad, sure, a 400 dollar fishing pole, no problem, dropping 600-1000 on poker and football a weekend, I don't bitch. Maybe if he took a month off from his activities we wouldn't have to question where the money is coming from. We have half of it in savings, 3 times it in our retirement fund, 3/4 it in my checking account, and we are getting our tax return here in the next month or so. I don't understand the obession over where it is coming from. Worst case scenerio I will take out a loan and pay it back as needed. So far that has been my only cause of sress about the issue.

I was so tired last night I couldn't sleep. Had to take some baby benadryl to put me over the edge to sleep. Atlas usually would do the trick for me but was not feeling well when he arrived home from work so I was left to sit in bed, wide awake. I have to go and get ready for school. I will update again soon.

TMI Tuesday #223 - Masturbation Edition

TMI Tuesday #223 - Masturbation Edition
1. When you masturbate, how long, typically, is your session and what do you think about (other than having an orgasm)?

It varies in length of time, sometimes only taking a few moments and other times taking alittle longer. Never longer than 15 minutes though.

2. Have you ever been "caught" masturbating?

Caught? I don't think so, and even if it was it wouldn't be considered caught. We are all pretty open about it in my house. Atlas and I both understand that we both have needs and sometimes those needs do not need to be met by our partner sometimes we just haev to do it to get it out of the way.

3. Have you ever masturbated in front of your computer? If 'yes' was it for your own purposes or for someone's viewing pleasure?

Yes, and it was for my own purposes, No one has ever seen me masturbate except maybe Atlas and it never makes it the whole way without him joining in.

4. Have you ever attended a group masturbation party? Same-sex or mixed?

Nope, I have not.

5. When masturbating, as you reach orgasm, do you continue to stimulate yourself without interruption, or do you stop and apply pressure until your spasms subside? Or?

I usually stop until the spasms subside. I am pretty lame I know but at that point I am usually done, roll over and go to sleep.

6. Have you ever video'ed yourself while masturbating (solo)? Where are they now?

Nope, and like I mentioned before it probably wouldn't be that interesting anyway. Oh wait, I send a few short like 30 sec vids to Atlas before when we were separated for work. He deletes them when he returns.

Bonus (as in optional): How often do you use the word "fuck" (or its derivatives) in casual conversation - frequently, occasionally, rarely, never.

Fuck I use a lot more than I should considering the age of my children. Its derivitives I use on a fairly common basis. I have a pretty dirty mouth at times.

Again

I am sitting on the couch in my bedroom children running around with juiec boxes in hand. I sent Atlas out for the night. I knew he wanted an escape from the craziness that is our home. We had such a nice day together. We woke up, did breakfast, we did dishes and laundry and got the house cleaned up. The kids laid down for a nap and Atlas and I snuck into the shower to get cleaned up. We showered together and then hurried back to our bed for some much needed love making. I was laying on the bed when Atlas climbed on. He climbed between my legs and it only took me a few moments to notice the cough drop he still had in his mouth. It felt so good, cold, hot, cold, hot , Atlas working his mouth over my body. I reached out for his cock and climbed on top on him. Atlas rolled me back onto my back and climbed on top of me. I really enjoy the 69 position when I am on my back and Atlas is on top of me. He was between my legs when the pleasure became too much for me to continue to suck his cock. He slid a finger inside me and it pushed me over the edge. It felt so incredible! Atlas climbed up and kissed my mouth. Long passionate loving kisses. He kissed my neck and spent a long time on each breast. When I leaned up and licked his nipple we both began to laugh. He slid inside me and we both let out a moan. He had my legs on his shoulders as he fucked me from his knees. He slid my legs to the side and pumped harder into me. When he came he collapsed on top of me. I rolled onto my side and within seconds there was small fingers under the door and a small voice asking "What we were doing". We dressed and we all went out to lunch. We spent the rest of the day cuddled together in bed while the kids played around our room. What a lazy, wonderfully perfect Saturday.

It is strange but realizing how unsatisfied some people are in thier lives makes some people appreciate what they have more. Atlas' co-workers are all having issues with their spouses or ex spouses or whatever. It has turned Atlas into a differnt person. He has always loved me, he has always told me how much I meant to him but now he is showing me. I catch him talking to our kids and telling them how much he is in love with their mommy. My daughter told me friday that daddy said that he thought that I was the prettiest girl in the world. It is small things like that, or waking up and a note on the dresser saying have a great day that makes marriage worth all the work that it can sometimes be. Atlas climbs into bed every night and tells me how much he apprecaites me, those are the words that I was missing last year. The words that left me with resentment. And although I am sitting her alone. I am sitting her alone by choice. I wanted my time alone, i wanted to blog, and do homework and enjoy the quiet that fills my house when the children are asleep and the television is off. It is the details that I am picking up on now. Plus... the sex... I mean... wow. :)

My week in Review

It was a nice week but I am glad it is Friday. Monday was a holiday and it was a nice day to sit at home and relax, well kind of. Atlas did not have to go to work and he got up early and got the kiddos some cereal and got the house moving. He walked up next to my side of the bed and gave me a kiss on the forehead to wake me up. We were sitting on the couch in our bedroom after eating breakfast the kids playing in the livingroom and Atlas looked at me. " You wanna hump?" I looked at him, laughed and said "Of course I do but we don't have time." " I only need a few minutes." he replied." Well that wont get me too far" I started to laugh. Within a second he had pulled me to my feet and shut the bedroom door. With this I was laughing hysterically. "We don't have time for this, the kids are gonna be over in a second." Atlas bent me over the bed and pulled my pajama pants down to my knees. I was suprised but still laughing, I tried to call his bluff. He had his hand on the center of my back pushing me into the bed as he stepped out of his pants. I could feel him hard against me. He pushed into me and I let out a loud moan, no more laughing, he was serious. Atlas' hand remained on my back while the other hand reached around in front of me to work on my clit. Within minutes I had cum. Atlas grabbed me by the hips and slammed into me harder. I reached between my legs and grabs his balls in my hand. When he came I could feel his whole body tremble and he leaned down on top of me on the edge of the bed. Of course at this point small children realize the door is closed and are knocking to make sure " we are alright" "Yes," I replied as I begin to clean up and get dressed "papa was just helping me wake up."

Tuesday was uneventful. I returned to school. My classes and times aren't ideal but it is something that gets me out of the hosue and in turn I get a very good paycheck. Atlas had a late day at work and when he arrived home I was already in bed.

Wendesday is a very long day for me. I leave the house around 6am and do not return until after 6pm. Atlas and I retired to bed around 830 and put in the movie The Hurt Locker. Neither of us made it through the whole movie and it was the best sleep that I have had in a very long time.

Thursday is an easy day for me so after school I took my grandma to her house for the weekend. Atlas arrived home at a normal time and we watched the hockey game together. The kids were asleep in their beds by the middle of the second period so during the intermission we jumped in the shower together. During the third period we enjoyed some "naked hockey" which involves us watching the game together naked. Just imagine, high fives, jumping up and down, yelling at the tv naked hockey. It really is a lot of fun and I would suggest it for any sport. On occasion we would also enjoy "Naked Monday Night Football" depending on who was playing and how interested we are in the outcome determines how much attention we pay to the game. So when the game was fairly decided we retired to bed to finish our naked hockey. By then I was definately looking to score. So Atlas jumped on the bed and i climbed on the bed after him. I climbed up and kissed his neck, and licked his nipples. I climbed between his legs and began to suck his already hard cock. Atlas grabbed my hair and began to pull me up towards his face, I didn't make it the entire way as I slid him inside me. Atlas rubbed my clit as I rode him hard. I came but not completely. Atlas was far from done and he fucked me for a good 20 minutes. At this point I was squatting over him and he was leaning on pillows enjoying the full view of himself entering me. He sat up and I leaned back so I was sitting in front of him. My legs were over his and he held my ass in his hands as he pushed harder and deeper into me. It felt INCREDIBLE! We had done this position a few times before but it was never anything amazing. Last night though, the harder and faster he pushed into me the closer I came to cumming. We came at the same time. He leaned back and i clmibed back on top of him. I rolled off to his side and we laid there for a minute before we both needed a drink of water. It was a very vocal, sweaty incredibly satisfying night of naked hockey.

Happy Friday! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

HNT 2

Its been a very busy week. Back to school, long days, short evenings, quiet nights. Hopefully I will get a chance to write out a full blog entry later on today but for now I have to get my house up and running before I get going.
Happy HNT everyone!!!!

TMI Tuesday 3

1. Ideal amount of sex per week?

Idealy I could go everyday, probably twice a day but with our schedules and our children, stress and time constraints I think 4-5 times a week is ideal. Its about what Atlas and I are able to get in,sometimes more, sometimes less. There is always a lot of sexual energy between us.

2. Ever had an online affair?

Hm, No I haven't. I usually don't get close to people online. When I was young, I'd say 14 there was a boy who I talked to through thick and thin. His name is Marcus, we have never met, but we stay in contact on occassion. If I had to say I ever had feelings for anyone online it would of been him and it was years ago and it was simply because we kept each other sane through our crazy teenage years.

3. Are you a member of the mile high club?

Can't say that I am. I really was never too adventureous sexually. Atlas and I recently fucked in our car and it was the first time I ever had sex in the car so, it would probably take some serious convincing for me to try it on a plane.

4. Are you predjudice against any particular group of people?

Unfortuately I think I am. It is not a racial thing, it is not a class thing. In my line of work I just don't like working with older adults (elderly). I'm sorry, I know I am going to be old someday, and I am trying ot get better at it, I am taking classes to help educate me and I truly try.


5. What constitutes bad sex?

Bad sex? When neither person gets off? I swear, my first boyfriend and I had sex for probably a year before he was ever able to get off. Weird huh? I think maybe there is something wrong with him now that I look back on it. I was always able to get off but he never did. I don't think that my husband and I have ever really had "bad" sex. We are very comfortable with eachother and I just don't think it is possible for us to have bad sex.

Bonus (as in optional): Can females ejaculate?

I'm sure we can.

Can you do this?

I don't think I can. Is it something I have to concentrate on to do or something that would just do? I just don't think its for me.

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Lifeless friday night

So when you have small children I guess there isn't much of a night life. Atlas and I find ourselves cozied on the couch, no babysitter in sight most friday and saturday nights. Last night was no exception and I found myself boredd beyond words. I had a migraine most of the day so I treated myself to a motrin and a big glass of water, a hot shower and some comfy pajamas. Within minutes of the shower I was passed out of the couch. This is probably around 7pm. I know, what a boring night. I woke up early and made Atlas breakfast in bed. We usually switch off on the weekends, tomarrow I will get to sleep in and get breakfast in bed, sunday is usually pancake day. The children were busy playing in the living room when Atlas attacked me shortly after breakfast was all cleaned up. The sun came in through our bedroom window and filled our room. We kissed and laughed and made love. It was a lot of fun but short lived as our four year old soon figured out our door was closed and was knocking to come in. Shortly after she discovered the closed door our 2 yewar old was sticking pens and his small fingers under the door. I was on top and was able to see the little fingers sticking under the door so any chance of me getting off was lost in my concentration on the little fingers. I started to laugh because Atlas said " If we don't make any noise they won't know we're in here". Soon enough I was riding Atlas, silently, smile on both our faces, till he came hard inside me. It was a nice way to start the day off. Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Wow!!! I am just so thrilled over the respsonses I got from the first HNT picture. It was fun and excitig and I think I will probably do it again. Last night Atlas came home from work at a half decent time. We sat down shared dinner and a few glasss of wine and retired to our room to watch the new Public Enemies movie. Throughout the entire movie Atlas and I are playing grab ass, rub this rub that, tease here, kiss there. Well, At one point we both are into the movie and the playing stops, the movie begins to slow again and I look over and Atlas is asleep!! Aw, so I go sit on the couch in our room, finish the movie and start watching the hockey game that didn't start till late. During the first intermission I was feeling a little froggy, I guess its the 3 glasses of wine (i'm a cheap drunk btw) and I climb in bed next to Atlas. I kiss his neck and chest and lips just to make sure he is awake enough to enjoy what is going to come next. I pull the covers down and climb between his legs. I lick and flick and suck him until he is writhing on the bed moaning. Finally he reaches down " I'm going to cum" and this makes me continue with the same motions I have been doing only now with a bit more purpose. Atlas cums in my mouth and I milk it all out of him as his legs clamp around my body and he shakes. I climb up on top of him and kiss his neck. He lays there still twitching alittle, smile on his face. "I was sleeping so good," He smiles and looks at me, " Good Night, Atlas" I roll over. He grabs me and kisses me " You're the best, I love you with all my heart."
Happy Friday Everyone!!!!

HNT 1

Wow so this is my first HNT picture. It is of me, taken about two weeks ago. It was cold, Atlas and I were outside playing in the snow for a long time and when I walked in the house i took off my wet pants and boots and started to shake a drink mix in a bottle and that is when Atlas surprised me with the camera. So... its a first maybe a last, we'll see. Anyway, Happy HNT!!!

TMI Tuesday

Would you rather.....

1. Have eyes that always smile or a voice that makes people calm?

Hm... I think I would have to go with a calm voice because in my profession if I always had smiling eyes people may take what I am saying the wrong way. In other words, I am not always the bearer of good news or happy endings.
2. Have an affair and your partner catches you or your partner have an affair and you catch him/her?

Wow.Can't we just not have affairs? Um, for the sake of this I would rather he have an affair and catch him because that then would make him the bad guy in a divorce trail that is sure to follow.

3. Have better sex or more money?

Well, we have great sex already but money can not buy happiness. Wow, thats a tough one. We get by and do well with the money we have but more would always help so long as we remain at the level of sex that we have now.

4. Be able to read everyone’s mind all the time or always know the future?

I would rather read people's mind. I don't think I want to know what the future holds for me, I think I just want to go along for the ride as far as that is concerned however if I could read people's minds around me I bet it would make life a lot easier and probably more fun.

5. Your partner have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else?

Again. Ouch. Didn't I mention I have jealous tendendices in previous posts. Truthfully I would rather he have sed with someone else. I want to be the only girl he is in love with for the rest of his life. To know that he loved someone even remotely the way he loves me, would break my heart.

Bonus (as in optional): What one thing, big or small, would you change in your life if granted one wish by a lamp-bound genie? Why?

I truthfully wouldn't change anything. I am vey happy in my life. There are always going to be those situations that are going to upset me but it is how we get over those, and grow because of them that make us who we are. I wouldn't change a thing so with my one wish, I would grant the genie free.

Wow. Its been a while since i have been online to blog. Atlas has been ill and has stayed home from work, on top of that our son has also been ill. But he is sick in a weird way, no fever, nothing going on anytime during the day, he goes to sleep, sleeps for 4 hours wakes up and throw up all over the place. I have washed my sheets 4 times in the past week. I love clean sheets but I like just having clean sheets as opposed to knowing that someone puked on my sheets and I have to clean them. So between the two of them my blogging mojo was just low.

I start school again next Tuesday and man am I excited. It will be super awesome to be able to get out of the house on a regular basis again. Snow willing that is. Atlas has to go away for work the first weekend in February and he asked me to go along. It would sure be nice to get out and go for the weekend but I don't think I can find a sitter, not for the whole weekend and not for both kids. Atlas' family does not pitch in their fair share when it comes to our children. It doesn't bother me becuase I know I have a close knit helping family and that is all i need to know.

I watched Big Love last night. Wow it was great, it is by far my favorite show. Tonight House starts a new season also and I am so excited for that too!!! Yay.

Otherwise we had a very uneventful weekend but Atlas sure is helping more around the house and we are spending a lot more quality time together. I know this isn't much but its an update of why I haven't been on.

Word for Wednesday

We still have puppies. We are actually down to two beautiful,brindled, wonderful puppies. Puppies are so much like babies, they are so much cuter when you know they belong to someone else. With the cold weather it is very difficult to start training them. But slowly and surely we are working on it. Working on finding homes for these last 2 girls. Any takers?

Atlas came home from work two nights ago in a rotten mood. He walked in the door grumpy and it didnt get much better. He called me yesterday AM to apoligize for his foul mood. I told him I understand that he doesn't feel good and that his work day did not go as well as planned. It was still nice that he called to apoligize. Halfway through the morning he called to tell me he was going to the ER. He has been having gut issues for the past ... 3 weeks or so and has finally gotten over the idea that it is embarressing and he went. Atlas works about an hour and a half away from our home and with the amount of snow we have been having it would probably take me damn near 3 hours to get there. So I wanted him to come home and go to the ER by our hosue but he said he couldn't wait that long and went to the one by his work. I was frustrated because I wanted to know what was going on, I wanted to be there for him, I wanted to support him. Oh well... They perscribed him some medicine and made him an appointment with a specialist and sent him on his way. Needless to say, he is not feeling any better, and in my opinion is a little worse off than when he went, only now he is no longer dehydrated.

This brings me to my word of the day, Priority... What is your top priority? I have a pretty clear cut veiw of what mine are and I treat them accordingly. First and foremost, my children top the list. Then Atlas, and our marriage,our relationship. Next is my Nuclear family, mother,sisters,father,grandparents (I have never had to make choices between Atlas and my family so I feel that they may be interchangable pending the circumstances). Next my job,and career ( I know it seems like I am not employed because I say I am going to school, but at this point in time going to school is my job and I get paid very well to do it. Makes some people kind of jealous that I am getting paid to attend college.)I think that this point things get a little blurrly, priorities mingle, mix and can be interchanged depending on mood or circumstance but the top spots are sketched pretty much in stone. So, the reason this is my word today is because I feel like maybe Atlas has his priorities... mixed? Or maybe as a woman I just don't understand his reasoning behind some things.

As mentioned above Atlas is ill, we have about 6 inches of new snow on the ground most of the schools are delayed or cancled and Atlas feels that it is imperative for him to trek the hour and a half, possibly longer do to road conditions to work, when I feel he would be better suited staying home today.

So what are your top priorities? What would it take to change them?